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@Nameless000 im so sorry, I understand that feeling. ocd is the worst.

@co140 by the way I relate completely to what you are going through, I was actually relieved that I wasn't the only. Hope you feel the same way. You're not the exception

@JoeKing Ur thoughts don’t make u a bad person, and bad thoughts doesn’t mean you are a p. I feel the same way you do, that everyone would hate me if they knew inside my brain. But everyone has intrusive thoughts, we just have something (ocd) that makes it like 10x worse lol.

@co140 Yeah, my intrusive thoughts are bad though. Not only are they sexualized towards children, but also I have like very hurtful intrusive thoughts that are racist, homophobic, psychopathic, and just like stuff that I’m not. Like random thoughts that make fun of disabled people. And like I hate them. I hate them so much. I don’t know why it happens. I just wish it didn’t.

@JoeKing I have intrusive thoughts like that also. Mine sexualize everything including children which fricking sucks and I do get the racist and homophobic ones, and the physcopathic ones that really bother me!! Sometimes I end up hitting myself super hard in the head/face because of all of these. You know these thoughts are not you. They are just thoughts and it’s easier said than done but we just gotta label them as thoughts and let them pass. I understand you though, none of these things are me but they make me feel like they are :(

@co140 Yeah, except like I actually have a problem with harm to where it gets tempting to hurt people. So idk if I can say they’re not me. And yeah I also have a sexualization problem where I sexualize a lot of things. I hate it. I feel like I’m perverted which makes me hate myself a lot.

@JoeKing I have felt like that also, with harm, like physically hurting people, ive had feelings to hurt people out of anger or emotion , also just random intrusive thoughts. For me a part of it is anger issues and bad impulse control, and then the other I just call “ocd urges” which are false urges that feel real in my opinion. But my brain sexualizes everything too, so I understand, it literally could be anything, even something u would think can’t be sexualized, my brain manages to do it. I do not think you should hate yourself at all. I feel as though these thoughts and feelings are not you or me, everyone has weird thoughts, even just as bad as we have or even worse, my friend told me. He told me he gets disturbing thoughts but instead of how i go about it(having ocd and being stuck on it and overthinking and it basically tormenting my soul lol) he gets these thoughts and thinks “wtf that was weird where did that come from” and he just moves on. It’s easier said than done but we can’t let our thoughts define/control who we are

@co140 For me I get intrusive thoughts and I’m never sure if it’s my psychosis or if it’s my OCD, but I usually just tell them to stfu and it helps. Like I’ll get thoughts like “you don’t even like them, you just use them” and I’ll tell them “shut the fuck up” and it helps. And I’ll also insult them and stuff like that and it helps. For me I find gore fascinating, but I also am afraid of myself for it. I listen to a lot of music about murder and stuff, and I love it, but at the same time I feel like it’s unhealthy. I use fantasizing about murder as a way to cope. But also yeah the intrusive thoughts do make me afraid, especially with how tempting it gets.

@JoeKing I find gore fascinating too, Not in a weird way though, like sexualizing it or anything, I really like true crime, morgue and autopsy photos, and crime scenes a lot. I do have periods where I watch real footage of actual f-ed up deaths that happen in the world and it’s like morbid curiosity but I do feel weird and afraid of myself for it. I do also fantasize about hurting people but usually people who have hurt me. It is unhealthy, and I do not do it a lot, when I do find myself thinking these things I focus my thoughts on something more positive, trying to acknowledge where these thoughts may come from and what is the rooted issue. With the intrusive thoughts I do say the same thing to myself and it helps sometimes. If the temptation to hurt people gets serious, obviously that would be a time where you should seek help, but I honestly feel like it’s a battle between ur brain and ur morals. U know what’s right but ur thoughts try u convince u you want otherwise is how I see it

@co140 My thoughts about hurting people are like very serious tbh. Like I’ve had plans about it all. And I’ve tried to get help, but my mom won’t let me get help. Also, tbh I do sexualize gore too. It’s more of out of curiosity than anything. And yeah I’m trying to help myself with it all too. I think I’m getting progress. I’ve been working on myself for a long time and I’ve gotten really far and I’m very proud of myself for it.

@JoeKing I’m sorry about your mom, and it is good that you want to get help. As long as you don’t hurt anyone or yourself. I’ve had my intrusive thoughts sexualize gore. It’s not something that I deal with often though. Any progress is good progress though :)!