False memory ocd

Yess, that is my problem too. And then I think about it until I find a "slot" in my memory where it could have been happened and then my mind "creates" a memory. Then I search so much in order to find proof. It is a never ending circle :(

But I cant live with the thought. What if it is real?

@Cosi02 I understand completely. that's ocd, it gives you thoughts that you cannot live with to get you stuck in the loop. I was once in your situation where false memory ocd had created this absolutely disgusting "memory" in my head, that I could not live with if it was real. The ONLY way to stop it for me was using nonengagement responses, in my case I would say "maybe it's true, maybe it's not true" then I was able to overcome it despite it being so hard to cope with. I promise you, it really does help. I believe in you!!

@Hopeful2022 Thank you very much. I know, it is reassurance seeking but I just need one person to tell me. When I doubt about whether something happend or not, this means it isn't real, doesn't it? And will I be able to know the truth one day? And if yes, how long will it take?

@Cosi02 For me, when I started using the nonengagement responses for false memory it confirmed that my memory was not real, so they do really help. I'm not sure how long it will take for you, as everyone's ocd is different. But I really encourage you to try it because it helped me massively to get over this theme ❤️

@Hopeful2022 Okay so some day you just knew it? :(

@Cosi02 Yes, when I stopped trying to figure out if it was real or not , aka stopping doing my compulsions and stopping ruminating, it became clear to me that I didn't do this false memory. I know how difficult this is, because it's so uncomfortable to accept that it could be true, but nonengagement like "maybe it is true, maybe it's not" and sitting with that uncertainty will make it become clear to you later on

@Cosi02 Just keep trying to remind yourself when you do this nonengagement that it's necessary to treat your ocd, and you deserve to get better

@Hopeful2022 I somehow managed to stop doing my compulsions for a week but it does not get better... maybe I am too inpatient

@Hopeful2022 Thank you very much ❤️ do you still struggle with ocd?

@Cosi02 You have to be extremely consistent. Just a week is not enough time, you need to really persist with it for it to become bearable

@Cosi02 At the moment I'm going through a rough patch, but for a whole year I had my OCD completely under control and this was after a false memory episode which I managed to control :)

@Hopeful2022 I am in this phase for over 2 years now and it seems like it won't end:( but I will try my best to not do my compulsions

@Cosi02 It will end!! It does get better I promise. My false memory episode lasted a while like yours has, but when I begun to use the nonengagement it left me and I haven't looked back. I believe you can get better :)

@Hopeful2022 Thank you very mucg❤️

@Cosi02 That's okay!! Always here if you need any advice <3