Ruminating and checking

I will be ruminating and checking images/thoughts/ "video like images" in my head and i always feel like some sort of.. what i call an "excitement jolt" inside. This makes me want to check and ruminate more and i start to spiral and think well if my body reacts for this and not this then it must be true or if I react more to one image than the other (for example, being more attracted to women then my boyfriend) I don't know if that makes sense at all but does anyone else struggle with this?

Username: Tea and HoneyTea and Honey

Date posted: 34w ago

I think physical sensations are just life intrusive thoughts. We should treat them as meaningless and ignore them. In other words, it doesn’t matter if we feel a physical sensation or not (just like it doesn’t matter if we get an intrusive thought or not.) The best example is the groinal response. People with OCD could have that happen at any time (just like an intrusive thought). But imagine how much pain we would go through if we tried to figure out if that meant anything or out not! Thankfully, it doesn’t mean anything. With OCD, physical sensations generally don’t mean anything, and we can’t use them to measure how we feel inside. The best thing to do is just practice ERP on those thoughts. My therapist trained me to think of my thoughts like leaves failing from a tree and floating down the river. We can notice the leaves/thoughts, but we don’t do anything about them. We just let them go by. We don’t try to figure them out or fight them. We just let them roll past in our minds. Don’t let the thoughts and images and feelings determine any of your decisions!! Just go forward in life the way you want to, and don’t put any credence on the leaves going by 😀 🍁

Username: Tea and HoneyTea and Honey

Date posted: 34w ago

@Tea and Honey Typo: I meant to write that the physical sensations are just LIKE intrusive thoughts

Username: tswift123tswift123

Date posted: 34w ago

i struggle with similar things! i struggle with rocd and sometimes it can feel as if the intrusive thoughts are what i actually want or “what my subconscious wants” - ocd is great at manipulating and convincing. the best advice i have is just to wait it out and don’t act on the thoughts and deal with the uncertainty which sounds tough but it helps over time.

Username: Jade02!Jade02!

Date posted: 34w ago

I always want to confess because of the guilt of it:( my boyfriend understand it all and is super understanding but I don't want to keep falling into that trap and have it keep happening.

Username: tswift123tswift123

Date posted: 34w ago

@Jade02! i totally understand the confessing thing. i had the same thing happen, where i told my boyfriend i had feelings for another guy while we weren’t dating yet but in the talking stage. i never had any intentions of doing anything and honestly didn’t have real feelings for the other guy (linking into real event/false memory ocd) but i still felt so guilty, and honestly still do. i confessed to him and obviously he wasn’t happy about it but it wasn’t a big thing to him, however he was more put off by my reaction. it was me constantly asking if he was mad or thought i cheated that made things worse. i started going to therapy again and it eventually went away, but i had something traumatic happen and my ocd flared up because of it. this caused me to fall into the cycle again, but this time i didn’t confess or talk about it at all and it was better like that. just remember confessing makes it worse because even though you’re brain tells you you’re cheating, you probably aren’t and it’s your ocd because if you love you’re partner you wouldn’t cheat and no matter what your brain tells you you’re not a terrible person. i’m very glad your boyfriend understands and now mine does too but before he didn’t know i had ocd (im not like officially diagnosed so i don’t tell people but i do have diagnosed anxiety). i know it sounds tough because the amount of guilt ocd puts you under is something a person without ocd would never understand because it’s unimaginably terrible and terrifying, but time and resisting compulsive confessing does help. sorry this is so long lol

Username: Jade02!Jade02!

Date posted: 34w ago

Edit: I also typically feel that I am using ocd as an excuse for "how I actually feel"

Username: Nicolas:)Nicolas:)

Date posted: 34w ago

Yeah I feel that all the time

Username: Ríona

Date posted: 5y ago

Anyone else read about "groinal response" and "arousal non-concordance"? Basically anyone can feel a slight "twinge" of arousal at a random time, but for people with OCD, they immediately latch onto it and think it MEANS something about them. This is how many cases of HOCD, POCD, BOCD, etc begin, I'd imagine. I can have felt something one time 3 years ago and nothing since then, but still be worried it "means" something about me. Or, sometimes that first incident causes repeated intrusive thoughts every time you come in contact with that thing, so it become a self fulfilling prophesy. I can be doing fine for weeks and then suddenly start worrying about one of these again. Anyone else have any experiences similar?

Username: lalalalal166373

Date posted: 30w ago

Advice? Anyone experiencing the same? I feel alone

I am in a rumination loop. Nothing is satisfying my thoughts. It’s just a constant, you are lying to yourself, you are gay etc etc. My brain keeps putting pictures of me and a woman in the future and I don’t want that. Then my brain goes well ‘What if you do or are lying to yourself and in denial?’ Sometimes the false attraction is weird because deep down I know it’s not true but when I am in a spiral I don’t know what is real or fake, the ‘attraction’ that my brain thinks is real is this distress in my chest it’s not enjoyable. But as I write this my brain goes ‘Well you are just saying that because you are in denial and you do actually like it.’

Sexual Orientation OCD

Username: libertyliber...

Date posted: 9w ago

question

does anyone else use the fact that they dont like their thoughts as a confirmation/compulsion, and or when you go through something stressful with little to no compulsions take it as a sign they actually like it? is this apart of usual rumination or am I expirencing something different? and how do you deal with it?

Sexual Orientation OCD

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