- Username
- WeAllGotThis10
- Date posted
- 28w ago
I Need Help
I'm in such a dark place with SOCD or HOCD, I don't know what to do at this point. It's literally the only thing that I focus on all day and I don't even know who I am anymore. Some days I worry that I'm gay and the other days I worry that I'm asexual because I want to be with women so bad. Ever since this started I've lost pretty much all my sexual attraction to girls and now have crippling social anxiety. I used to check both gay and straight p*rn to see what I got excited by and now that I quit doing that things are so much worse. This has negatively affected pretty much every aspect of my life and it's made me suicidal. There are times when the thoughts get so bad I start to hit myself. No medication that I have tried has worked at all and I'm pretty sure they just give me side effects. I feel so lost and helpless, I can't even get therapy on this site because my insurance doesn't cover it. If anyone has any tips for me or resources that I could use that would be awesome.