Hey guys I’m really scared of loosing touch with the reality.. I’m scared that everything around me is not real or objects that’s something else than what it really is.. can anyone relate?
Yeah I feel like that all the time. The matrix really messed me up
I understand this completely, as I experience a form of psychosis fairly regularly. Sometimes I will question if I have an unusual encounter with a stranger if that person was real or not or even if I’m hearing things that are real or not. OCD will feel so real sometimes. I think a solution is to accept that we don’t need to know what’s real. Take pressure off ourselves about finding the answer in the uncertainty.
Oh yeah. My biggest fear/ocd theme in life is developing schizophrenia/psychosis and on top of that having ocd/anxiety can cause you to feel “out of it” which just triggers the fear and they feed off each other. It’s very tricky to deal with but I hope we get there.
hey so this sounds a lot like dissociation/ dpdr/ existential ocd. its just a fear that stems from extreme anxiety. feeling dissociated is just your brain’s way of protecting itself. it becomes so overwhelmed and anxious that it feels like it needs to dissociate in order to cope. you’re NOT going crazy and you won’t lose your sense of reality. they’re just thoughts and ofc they will feel real because of ocd. and if you think you’re going crazy or psychotic then you really aren’t because crazy people don’t think or know that they’re crazy. hope this helps <3
I’ve never been diagnosed with OCD, but I relate so much to what people here are going through. I used to think it was just anxiety, and I felt like I could handle that. But lately I’ve been spiraling—constantly afraid that what I’m feeling is something worse, like psychosis or losing control of my mind. I feel so detached and scared, and I just want peace again. I have anxiety doing the smallest things, like the thought of waking up everyday and even eating give me straight up panic. I am afraid all the time, it’s paralyzing. And a lot of people say someone with psychosis wouldn’t worry that they’re in it, but then I convince myself I’ve been in it this whole time, and haven’t known, and that maybe I’ve been doing weird stuff. Idk. I also get really scared of labels. Even the idea of OCD makes me feel like I’ll never get better or like I’ll be stuck like this forever. I just want to be okay. If anyone has felt this way—confused, overwhelmed, or scared of what’s happening in their mind—I’d really appreciate any support or encouragement.
Idk how to caption it other than that. My whole life I’ve had an issue with memory hoarding and the upside has been that I have a really vivid memories of my childhood and I get to remember my best days, the main downside has always been I have a lot of childhood trauma too and I remember every detail meticulously like I can relive and reanalyze them which has caused issues in my healing. However as much pain as it is to remember bad things so well it’s always been a bit of a comfort bc at least I know for sure even if other people don’t know or don’t believe. But as of lately I I’ve been forgetting things, whether it’s what time I’m supposed to work (and I have compulsions when checking my work schedule bc I’m always scared of reading it wrong so I usually open it up read it close it and open it up again 2-3 times so I usually KNOW) or what day it is, or just small things that I don’t remember saying or doing that other people swear on. I just have always felt like I know at the very least I know and lately I don’t and I’m so scared of going crazy and losing myself like literally my biggest fear. So I hate this. Today is Friday I was convinced yesterday was Friday and I woke up today for my Saturday shift completely convinced today was Saturday. I hate being wrong and making those small mistakes because it’s terrifying to think about what else I’m remembering wrong, or what else do I not “know” that isn’t actually the truth? I’m just so scared of losing myself mind. Has anyone ever experienced anything like this?
does anyone else have this? when I had panic attacks in the past I’d fear death, but now I’m more afraid of losing myself and being taken over by some psychotic version of me. It makes every panic attack that much more debilitating , because I’m fearing losing my brain, my future, everything…and never going back to normal.
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