lonelytype
- Date posted
- 1y
i really just dont know who i am anymore
POCD has made me lose all my self identity, i dont know who i am anymore. Im really tired, when will this horror end.
queendqueend
- Date posted
- 1y
pocd is truly hell. ocd can make you go crazy. can mess with your thoughts and can fully make you believe you are an abuser or a monster. it is debilitating and it is nothing but horror. i am not scared of the so called place "hell", because i have been through it with pocd. identity crisis. gradual loss of sanity. i just want you to know, you are not the person who your brain tells you are. you are a human being. i know it feels surreal to imagine a reality where you actually realize that your mind actually lies to you and the truth has nothing to do with what it tells/dictates you, you actually feel a bit relieved. my dear friend, your brain and your thoughts do not define who you are and have never defined. you deserve respect and love just because you are here, a human, child of god, carrying a spark of divine in you. you are so very worthy. i recommend following @obsessively_anxious on instagram, her posts make me feel so seen and validated! i see you and i love you my dear friend, and i know the pain, the horror and the terror that your thoughts create in your mind, but i just want you to know that it lies to you and it does not align with the truth.
lonelytypelonelytype
- Date posted
- 1y
@queend This genuinely brought tears to my eyes, i needed this. Thank you so much, you are a kind soul. š„¹ā¤ļø
katieR94katieR94
- Date posted
- 1y
Iām going through the same thing. Iām exhausted. But it really has helped me to realise that we need to accept the feelings and float on through. I may have already mentioned but if youāre really struggling try ALI GREYMOND on YouTube. Sheās phenomenal and made such a MASSIVE difference in my life. I still struggle a lot with POCD, but I can now leave the house and have a better understanding of myself āŗļø we are all here for you. You can do this xx
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