i really just dont know who i am anymore

pocd is truly hell. ocd can make you go crazy. can mess with your thoughts and can fully make you believe you are an abuser or a monster. it is debilitating and it is nothing but horror. i am not scared of the so called place "hell", because i have been through it with pocd. identity crisis. gradual loss of sanity. i just want you to know, you are not the person who your brain tells you are. you are a human being. i know it feels surreal to imagine a reality where you actually realize that your mind actually lies to you and the truth has nothing to do with what it tells/dictates you, you actually feel a bit relieved. my dear friend, your brain and your thoughts do not define who you are and have never defined. you deserve respect and love just because you are here, a human, child of god, carrying a spark of divine in you. you are so very worthy. i recommend following @obsessively_anxious on instagram, her posts make me feel so seen and validated! i see you and i love you my dear friend, and i know the pain, the horror and the terror that your thoughts create in your mind, but i just want you to know that it lies to you and it does not align with the truth.

I’m going through the same thing. I’m exhausted. But it really has helped me to realise that we need to accept the feelings and float on through. I may have already mentioned but if you’re really struggling try ALI GREYMOND on YouTube. She’s phenomenal and made such a MASSIVE difference in my life. I still struggle a lot with POCD, but I can now leave the house and have a better understanding of myself ☺️ we are all here for you. You can do this xx