Pocd and real events ocd

I also have pocd and real events OCD regarding explicit anime/explicit cartoon corn too… (14, 17-18) the content was on public sites and some of them said the characters that were underage in canon, were 18+ in the content, so I thought they were safe to watch… I don’t ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way shape or form… some of the explicit anime characters looked and were really young… and i avoided most of the content involving the really young anime characters, but i thought some of this content wasnt Pediphilic because they were on public explicit sites and had millions of views… so i thought it was safe to watch... I didnt know how horrible the young anime character content was or what it represented… I assumed that some of this content was safe to look at because it was on public sites and had millions of views… and doing my research about it later on made me vomit… i dont ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way shape or form… there were some anime characters that looked and were extremely young… i didnt know how horrible this type of content was or what it represented… When i was looking at explicit anime content (i was 19 and was making sure the characters were over the age of 18) I accidentally looked at characters that were 17 by mistake... (a couple times even though the site said all characters have to be 18+) my pocd is saying im in denial for all of this... this, combined with my previous pocd and real events based on this... makes me just feel so alone...

82023

Date posted: 1y

I’ve been though pretty much the exact same situation. It was hell to go through mentally although I’m so much better now. I think so many people have been through similar situations and won’t want to admit it. Everyone experiments and explores at that age, you have nothing to worry about.

Givenup

Date posted: 1y

@82023 I was also 17-18... Im 22 now... I dont ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way shape or form...

82023

Date posted: 1y

@Givenup I was 17/18 too! The only difference is that it was p*ronigraphic fanfiction. The characters where aged up. You have nothing to worry about (I came here for advice and help too people where so helpful and lovely about it)

Givenup

Date posted: 1y

@82023 some of the explicit anime characters looked and were really young… and while i avoided most of the content involving the really young anime characters, i thought some of the content wasnt Pediphilic because they were on public explicit sites and had millions of views… so i thought it was safe to watch... I didnt know how horrible the young anime character content was or what it represented… I assumed that some of the content was safe to look at because it was on public sites and had millions of views… and doing my research later on made me vomit… i dont ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way shape or form…

Givenup

Date posted: 1y

@82023 I hope I havent upset you with this newest comment...

82023

Date posted: 1y

@Givenup ofc not! Like I said I’ve been through the same and I know how horrible it is and the hell pocd put me through, i never want anyone to go through what I went through with it.

Givenup

Date posted: 1y

@82023 Did you see my comments on your posts? As well as the comments above...?

Givenup

Date posted: 1y

@82023 some of the explicit anime corn characters looked and were really young… and while i avoided most of the content involving the really young anime characters, i thought some of the content wasnt Pediphilic because they were on public explicit sites and had millions of views… so i thought it was safe to watch... I didnt know how horrible the young anime character content was or what it represented… I assumed that some of the content was safe to look at because it was on public sites and had millions of views… and doing my research later on made me vomit… i dont ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way shape or form…

Ocdbyebye7-

Date posted: 49w

@82023 Hi, I just wanted to ask am I a P because sometimes when I was 16 17 and 18 I would go on wattpad and a03 and Tumblr to read fanfiction that would have mature content content. But now im obsessing over the ages of the authors of thoes fan fics, when I saw the 18+ and "mature" tag it felt safe? But I am aware that there are underage authors who write that type of fanfiction and I felt turned on by it. Please give me advice im currently looking for a therapist but its a longer process than I anticipated, so this is all I have ATM .

Givenup

Date posted: 13w

Pocd and my situation

Youtubers are constantly getting accused of doing p*dophilic activity and its making me think my real events are as bad or as worse as them... Ive vented a lot to a lot of people in the PM's about my OCD... some of them younger (minors)... because I wanted reassurance from everyone and anyone... but this situation triggers me the most because I was venting about my 18+ HOCD situations... In an HOCD support group I was in, I vented to 2 minors in the PM's about my 18+ HOCD situations... The leader of the support group (that i vented to) was 17... I was 19 at the time... the other minor i vented to was younger (14-15)... the younger one told me she was uncomfortable when i vented to her in the PM's twice... i stopped and blocked her after she told me the second time... i kept asking the leader of the support group for reassurance for my 18+ HOCD situations for months because she kept giving me reassurance... i thought she was cute but didnt pursue her because of my age... i dont ever want to ever be a P or a MAP or a groomer in any way... I keep getting this gut feeling in my stomach that i "flirted" with the younger one that I vented to, who i blocked after she told me twice she was uncomfortable about me venting about my 18+ hocd situations... i didnt ever vent to them for malicious intent... I was trying to get reassurance for my hocd... Plus my pocd keeps saying I cant have any opinions online because of my pocd and real events ocd situations and that Im not a good person so I cant say anything online... Also i keep getting intrusive thoughts of people labelling me as a P and a MAP in the future because of these pocd real events... And i keep getting intrusive thoughts of being outcasted and "cancelled" online when someone "exposes" me for my POCD and real events OCD...

Givenup

Date posted: 12w

Pocd and horrible real events

I think these are the worst real events ive ever done... and Im so triggered because the last thing I want is to be a a P or a MAP... im triggered because I dont want the people ive become friends with on NOCD to block me because they think im a P or a MAP... thats the last thing I want... When I was 18, i unknowingly consumed l*licon a couple times... I didnt know what the term was at the time... I thought that since it was on a public site, and it had millions of views, that i thought it was safe to consume... when I did my research when I was 19 onto what exactly the term was... I was horrified and mortified... I puked and gagged and felt numb for days... it's been 5 years since then... im 23... and the last thing I want is to ever be exposed to this kind of content ever again... let alone consume it... I should've been more knowledgeable and it's my fault... my pocd and real events ocd call me a P and a MAP when these are the LAST things i want to be... I know what I did was wrong and I regret it immensely till this day... and im so overwhelmed...

Givenup

Date posted: 12w

Pocd and my horrible childhood

What if you did something extremely horrible as a child that you didn’t know how horrible the events were that your POCD and real events OCD targets? Does it make the intrusive thoughts true? I'm getting anxious from my POCD and real event OCD based on real events (3 times) from when I was 13…… I don't ever want to ever be a P at all… I don't ever want to ever be a Chomo at all... i don’t ever want to ever be a rapist at all… I was 13 when these real events happened and now I'm 20... I've asked my mom about this so many times and every time she tells me that it's not serious anymore, that the person is okay and doesnt remember, and that I'm not a rapist or a P or a chomo... I didn’t realize how horrible the real events actually were… I was 13 at the time… now I’m 23… my POCD and real event OCD call me a P or a chomo because of the real events… while my mom reassures me all the time that it’s all over, that it’s not serious anymore, that the person is okay, and that I’m not a P or a rapist or a chomo, but when I was doing compulsive research, I remember when I saw a post on a non OCD forum about someone’s similar situation to mine and two people said to the person that they m*lested and that they needed to turn themselves in… I don’t ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way shape or form… i didn’t know how horrible the real events were when I was 13… I really didn’t… and after the real events I never did anything like that ever again, and I never once ever thought (before, and after) about doing stuff with kids in any way shape or form... I never once fantasized about kids or wanted to do anything with kids… I was 13 and didn’t realize how horrible the actions were at the time and I never did it ever again… I never once fantasized about kids before or after the real event… I don't ever want to ever harm a child in any way shape or form... I seriously don't ever want to do that to any child in any way shape or form and I seriously don't ever want to do anything like that to any kid now or in the future… I never have had any fantasies about kids and I don't ever want to... I don't ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way shape or form... I was 13….. and after the real events I never did anything like that ever again, and I never once ever thought (before, and after) about doing stuff with kids in any way shape or form... I never once fantasized about kids or wanted to do anything with kids… I was 13 and didn’t realize how horrible the actions were at the time and I never did it ever again… I never once fantasized about kids before or after the real event… And it’s comparing me to actual P’s and chomo’s who did stuff from 12-15 and then did stuff as adults, and making me think I’m a P and a Chomo because of it… I don’t ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way… 😭😭😭

Be a part of the largest OCD Community

Share your thoughts so the Community can respond

Pocd and real events ocd

Related posts

Be a part of the largest OCD Community

Be a part of the largest OCD Community