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health concern stories
can those who struggle with health concern ocd tell me about their stories with it? i dont want to feel alone
can those who struggle with health concern ocd tell me about their stories with it? i dont want to feel alone
Soo I’ve been struggling with this as well, I keep going to the hospital because I think my liver is failing constantly because I rely on alcohol to go to bed, I finally got my liver ultrasound and organs all checked and everything is fine, last night I fell just to get out of work because I felt “dizzy and wasn’t feeling good” I started worrying about mental health and went to the walk in again, I can’t even go to dinner with my gf anymore because of my OCD, last night I went out to have food and I completely lost it I wanted to leave ASAP, now I’m worrying about my brain health and wondering if everything is right in my head, OCD sucks, but I awake everyday but struggle everyday with the same thoughts, I’m right here with you
I’ve had health ocd since I was sexually abused as a child, it has almost always been focused around fear of getting hiv and it really makes life difficult. I’ve made it to my healthiest relationship ever with someone who is great and I have done so many hiv tests to make sure I don’t have it and haven’t passed it to him but i can never be 100% sure about it I always think maybe results are wrong somehow. The last five months have been hell because I had a possible exposure to blood and I’ve been freaking out doing lots of tests googling on a loop having panick attacks that made me have to leave work … it is being really difficult because it just makes me feel like I could hurt someone that is so great so much, that is my biggest fear. With all of the testing I’ve done the only possibility that I could have hiv but all of my tests are negative is that I have last stage cancer and maybe that could false my results in some way and (of course) I now think I may have hiv + last stage cancer. This illness is really debilitating but I believe I will get better and so will you, hope you are doing better ❤️
Hi everyone, I’m Andrea and I am a member of the Intake Team here at NOCD. In junior high, I was known as the “aneurysm girl” because I was convinced any small headache meant I was dying. At just 12 years old, I read something that triggered my OCD, and from that moment on, my brain latched onto catastrophic health fears. Any strange sensation in my body felt like proof that something was seriously wrong. I constantly sought reassurance, avoided being alone, and felt trapped in an endless cycle of fear. Over time, my OCD shifted themes, but health anxiety was always there, lurking in the background. I turned to drinking to numb my mind, trying to escape the fear that never let up. Then, in 2016, everything spiraled. I was sitting at work, feeling completely fine, when suddenly my vision felt strange—something was “off.” My mind convinced me I was having a stroke. I called an ambulance, launching myself into one of the darkest periods of my life. I visited doctors multiple times a week, terrified I was dying, yet every test came back normal. The fear never loosened its grip. For years, I cycled in and out of therapy, desperately trying to find answers, but no one recognized what was really happening. I was always told I had anxiety or depression, but OCD was never mentioned. I was suicidal, believing I would never escape the torment of my mind. It wasn’t until 2022—after years of struggling, hitting rock bottom, and finally seeking specialized OCD treatment—that I got the right diagnosis. ERP therapy at NOCD was the hardest thing I’ve ever done, but it saved my life. Today, I’m 34, sober, and living a life I never thought was possible. Do I still have hard days? Absolutely. But I am no longer a prisoner to my fears. The thoughts still come, but they don’t control me anymore. They don’t dictate my every move. Life isn’t perfect, but it no longer knocks me off my feet. If you’re struggling with health OCD or somatic OCD, I see you. I know how terrifying and isolating it can be. But I also know that it can get better. If you have any questions about health & somatic OCD, ERP, and breaking the OCD cycle, I’d love to tell you what I’ve learned first hand. Drop your questions below, and I’ll answer all of them!
Hello, my name is Brittany, and I have been living with obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) for as long as I can remember. However, since experiencing a stroke that I believe was a result of chiropractic care, my struggles have intensified and become overwhelmingly exhausting. I have always been acutely aware of my body and its signals, which has led to a heightened sense of worry about potential health complications. Though I’ve always had a tendency to worry, the anxiety that has surged since my stroke feels insurmountable. I’m reaching out in hopes of connecting with others who understand this journey, sharing stories and experiences in the hope that, one day, I might find a way to overcome these challenges or at least discover some relief from the relentless grip of anxiety.
Last year during April I started to experience groinal responses when I looked at kids. I was terrified of what it could mean and decided to attempt two weeks later. The very next day I had those responses I decided to attempt. I didn’t really have the courage to do so at that time but I started experiencing images about disturbing things done to kids and as days went by it got worse. April 16 was the last straw and I couldn’t take it anymore. I ended up in a mental hospital but before I ended up there I had searched up what I was experiencing. That’s when I started to understand that it was OCD. I felt relieved for a few moments until I felt the urge to get more information. I saw lots and lots of things and many comments saying that it wasn’t normal and that people who went through this were disgusting people who shouldn’t be allowed to roam free. That’s when my anxiety and fear became worse and I tried to get rid of it but nothing worked. I shook the entire time I was awake, I didn’t have motivation for anything anymore, I just felt so disgusting. In the end, I’m so glad I ended up in that mental hospital or else I wouldn’t be here with my friends and family. Thank you for reading my story, I’m so glad that I’m not alone
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