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health concern stories
can those who struggle with health concern ocd tell me about their stories with it? i dont want to feel alone
can those who struggle with health concern ocd tell me about their stories with it? i dont want to feel alone
Soo I’ve been struggling with this as well, I keep going to the hospital because I think my liver is failing constantly because I rely on alcohol to go to bed, I finally got my liver ultrasound and organs all checked and everything is fine, last night I fell just to get out of work because I felt “dizzy and wasn’t feeling good” I started worrying about mental health and went to the walk in again, I can’t even go to dinner with my gf anymore because of my OCD, last night I went out to have food and I completely lost it I wanted to leave ASAP, now I’m worrying about my brain health and wondering if everything is right in my head, OCD sucks, but I awake everyday but struggle everyday with the same thoughts, I’m right here with you
I’ve had health ocd since I was sexually abused as a child, it has almost always been focused around fear of getting hiv and it really makes life difficult. I’ve made it to my healthiest relationship ever with someone who is great and I have done so many hiv tests to make sure I don’t have it and haven’t passed it to him but i can never be 100% sure about it I always think maybe results are wrong somehow. The last five months have been hell because I had a possible exposure to blood and I’ve been freaking out doing lots of tests googling on a loop having panick attacks that made me have to leave work … it is being really difficult because it just makes me feel like I could hurt someone that is so great so much, that is my biggest fear. With all of the testing I’ve done the only possibility that I could have hiv but all of my tests are negative is that I have last stage cancer and maybe that could false my results in some way and (of course) I now think I may have hiv + last stage cancer. This illness is really debilitating but I believe I will get better and so will you, hope you are doing better ❤️
Hey guys! So I struggle with OCD, especially harm, relationship and moral stuff and I am somewhat recovered now. However, my current girlfriend has started showing signs of OCD but it’s abou5 something I don’t know much about so I wanted to see if anyone on here had thoughts about it. She is constantly thinking about food (when to eat it, what is healthy, what is too much, what is too little) and controls the thoughts by giving in and controlling her entire day around food. She don’t really know the feeling of being full. She never starved herself and always eats, but then she feels extremely guilty afterwards. Her thoughts do have to do a lot with her body image and not gaining weight but also not losing any either. Does this sound like ocd or an eating disorder?
back in october i made my first post about my specific type of ocd, how it mixes in with my day to day and how i “deal” with it. i talked about the starting point, how it gradually got worse, and then how it was going just a few months ago. i always think it’s insane how much can change in just the course of a small to a large amount of time. right now, i honestly feel like garbage. to be quite sincere i really want to give up, i’m barely holding on by a thread. and if i cut that thread, i really doubt anyone would care. i’ve never considered myself to be a suicidal person, and i still don’t consider myself that right now. it just gets to a point where it’s just, a lot to deal with. i don’t really enjoy things a lot nowadays. sure i have good days like everyone does, like today, when i was just enjoying my day without worries. but then it all comes crawling back twice as bad the following days. i take online college so i’m usually just stuck at home most of the time. but, when i do decide to actually go out and leave my house, my ocd just explodes because i have this whole routine i need to do or else i feel like i’ll contaminate wherever i end up going. i’m not going to go really deep into my compulsions because it’s hard enough to live with them, much more having to type them all out in detail. but when i go out my compulsions go from wiping down all my stuff i’m going to use after showering, to washing my clothes/cleaning the washer + dryer. i also have separate things (or two of the same thing) i use specifically in my house, and items i use when going out. such as shampoo/body wash, deodorant, lotion, hair curler, etc. as if that’s not draining enough, i also feel the need to fast a couple days prior to any plan i make because i’ve forced myself to believe i need to feel empty in order to be clean. i’m not sure if that’s my past eating disorder talking, or my ocd, but my brain can’t help but think any food in my house is utterly and completely contaminated. i’m so tired of this feeling, feeling like nothing will ever be clean again. feeling like my ocd is trapped in my childhood home. feeling that wave of diseases rushing through my veins the moment i step foot into what’s supposed to be “home”. and i’m so scared of therapy because what if i do get healed, and then everything comes rushing back the second i step into my room. i’m planning on moving somewhere far from my current house in this next coming year, so sometimes i feel like just waiting it out. but it’s insufferable when going to hangout with someone. i miss my friends, my family, and my partner. it’s crazy to me that i’m dealing with all this at the young age of 18 but, i’m sure lots of people have it way worse. i just want to find a way out, any possible way. but i keep pushing myself deeper and deeper that when i finally find a way, it will no longer exist.
Any Christian’s with religion ocd and relationship ocd I feel so alone
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