“Making Up” OCD To Avoid “Real”Feelings

My ROCD has been super prevalent lately. This is kind of hard to explain, but a recent thought I can’t seem to shake is the fact that I could be just latching onto the fact that I have ROCD/“making it up” to avoid “the inevitable” or “my real feelings” meaning a breakup/ that I don’t love my partner. So like intrusive thoughts about the OCD itself if that makes sense? Kind of meta LOL - Has anyone else experienced this?

Username: Ambs KAmbs K

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 32w ago

Yes, I have experienced this as well. I think when it comes down to it, it’s another we won’t get 100% certainty about. OCD can get very meta. From what I’ve heard almost everyone with OCD will also doubt whether it’s actually OCD at some point in their journey.

Username: Manzanita Manzanita

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 32w ago

I have had this forever and it is very annoying. I just try to recognize the distress I feel when it comes up, because usually ocd is the distress causer. Of course then I have to tell myself ‘maybe I am faking it maybe I am not’. Then the hard part is making sure I am not checking or seeking reassurance.

Username: Jeff Johnson Jeff Johnson

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 32w ago

Definately deal with this one myself. Telling myself"Maybe, maybe not" has been helpful.

Username: Honeyshark Honeyshark

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 32w ago

Yeah happens to me too. OCD really knows how to mess with us.

Username: savvysavvy

Date posted: 4y ago

So my most current theme has been ROCD. It’s been nagging at me for the last 4 years. OCD makes me INCREDIBLY self critical and I often turn that internal voice on to my partner and can be incredibly critical of him. In essence, I’m almost subconsciously sabotaging my relationship which is the OPPOSITE of what I want. I’m looking for people who experience this same response and patterned behaviour. Share tips, in-the-moment awareness suggestions. Words of encouragement (not reassurance). OCD is such a trip lol

Username: jojobahnojo

Date posted: 3y ago

Anyone else have meta-ocd (obsessing about ocd itself)? I consider it for me the ultimate OCD fail safe. It keeps me doing the compulsions even if the distress goes away. I do most stuff just not to go through the constant rumination of ‘do I have ocd?’ and mental review of my entire life. I believe every thing I say and do now is fake/a lie/made up. I feel nothing but mentally I’m frustrated. Every time I do an ‘OCD-like’ behavior and do not experience uncomfortable emotions I doubt if I’m making it up for attention or misunderstood my symptoms. I am so distant from my emotions. I’m probably just ‘scared’ that I won’t be distressed> don’t have ocd> biggest fraud on this rotating rock. Sorry just had to vent. 😑

"Pure" OCD

Username: Peterpan21!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Is this really ocd or a cop out?

I am a happily married 26 year old. I love my husband and our two year old child. I have struggled with intrusive thoughts in the past. Pure “O” OCD and also POCD. A couple months ago I got triggered by something that made me think of an ex boyfriend from 2016. and it made me think what if I have feelings for him or what if I want to talk to him, etc and it's spiraled from there. Now I feel like I have to be with him or talk to him for the anxiety and thoughts to go away. And then yesterday I thought about him again and I was like well if I was with him would it be that bad? And it didn't make me anxious and now I'm anxious because it didn't make me anxious. Which has to mean I want to be with him? I don't want to be with him tho but what if that’s the case? And what if my ocd isn’t real. I feel like I’m drowning in my thoughts and I have created a situation that feels so intense and real

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