I feel 99.9% certain that i am a doll. i cant stop thinking sbout and and its getting to the point where people are asking me if im ok but if i dont act like one somethings going to happen to me.
Know that you’re not alone, and always realize that what you’re feeling is entirely something of a false infiltration on your mind, it isn’t real and it’s something that shouldn’t even be acknowledged, nothing will happen to you, even if you act a certain way or don’t, you’re human, just like me and everyone else here on this app, you’re not alone, and you’re 100% human. and 0% Doll.
So I’ve had this thing for a long time where my OCD makes me think my ‘energy’ can slightly disrupt computers, electronics, etc because of what is actually just simple coincidences…When that happens, I just have to remind myself that my silly OCD obviously wants me to be a comic book character. OCD can be a nasty little trickster like that… so just like I’m not a part of the X-Men, you’re not a doll.
My body has done weird things during interactions and sometimes it feels like the movements came from me, like I controlled them. It’s freaking terrifying. Sometimes I believe I’ve gone psycho. I don’t know who the fuck I am anymore. Maybe I should just accept that I’m a danger to society.
About two hours ago I saw a tiktok of someone who was about level 2 support level for their autism and isnt able to go to school because of it among other things, and ive been freaking out ever since i frequently obsess over mental illnesses or physical illnesses and thinking I have them but one im actually pretty sure of me having is autism but seeing things like that makes me think that im wrong, that my family members are right with saying im just special because i feel like i do not struggle enough, if that makes sense, my friends believe that it could be a possibility, but im not sure, i dont know how to calm myself, no one is responding to me right now and everyone is busy im just struggling
i’m having a full on panic attack, i never used to be like this, what tf is happening to me, why am i like this, i’m so convinced i’m a horrible person and i deserve to be shut out forever because of my thoughts, i’m tired of struggling with harm ocd, i’m scared that because i have mental health issues i’m gonna end up ki!!ing someone someday or end up on the news, when i was at work earlier i kept thinking “how easy would it be to ki!! someone and get away with it” someone help, i don’t feel normal, am i crazy?… 😭😭i know that with ocd you’re not supposed to have reassurance and you have to be “okay” with the situation but.. how am i supposed to be okay with feeling like i could hurt someone…
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