I feel 99.9% certain that i am a doll. i cant stop thinking sbout and and its getting to the point where people are asking me if im ok but if i dont act like one somethings going to happen to me.
Know that you’re not alone, and always realize that what you’re feeling is entirely something of a false infiltration on your mind, it isn’t real and it’s something that shouldn’t even be acknowledged, nothing will happen to you, even if you act a certain way or don’t, you’re human, just like me and everyone else here on this app, you’re not alone, and you’re 100% human. and 0% Doll.
So I’ve had this thing for a long time where my OCD makes me think my ‘energy’ can slightly disrupt computers, electronics, etc because of what is actually just simple coincidences…When that happens, I just have to remind myself that my silly OCD obviously wants me to be a comic book character. OCD can be a nasty little trickster like that… so just like I’m not a part of the X-Men, you’re not a doll.
Recently ive had ocd thoughts that are really weird and make no sense (they sound like thoughts that someone would have if they were in physcosis eg. What if trump can communicate with you through your head) like what??? Sometimes it feels like i believe it??? Which stresses me out and im constantly worried that im going through physcosis since i sort of belive it? I know deep down its ridiculous but it almost feels like i believe it?? Im scared. Like sometimes im calm with the thought. Im like oh okay maybe. Then sometimes my brain tries to imagine him like talking to me through my head??? Am i going through physcosis.??
My body has done weird things during interactions and sometimes it feels like the movements came from me, like I controlled them. It’s freaking terrifying. Sometimes I believe I’ve gone psycho. I don’t know who the fuck I am anymore. Maybe I should just accept that I’m a danger to society.
About two hours ago I saw a tiktok of someone who was about level 2 support level for their autism and isnt able to go to school because of it among other things, and ive been freaking out ever since i frequently obsess over mental illnesses or physical illnesses and thinking I have them but one im actually pretty sure of me having is autism but seeing things like that makes me think that im wrong, that my family members are right with saying im just special because i feel like i do not struggle enough, if that makes sense, my friends believe that it could be a possibility, but im not sure, i dont know how to calm myself, no one is responding to me right now and everyone is busy im just struggling
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