Disheartened

My ex got his new gf pregnant after 3 weeks of being with her, I was with him exclusively for a year and he wouldn’t ask me to be his gf. I feel absolutely horrific and worthless, why does she get this man who takes her out on dates and makes it all happy, why does he act like an arse hole to me on nights out every time and I end up crying. Why is she better than me? The thing is, there’s a 50/50 chance it’s not his, I don’t know if he knows but she was sleeping with her ex and him when they were dating, however my brain doesn’t think of that shit situation, it doesn’t think about the drama that’s gonna happen for the fact there’s cheating involved, I just always think of the fact that I got left for another girl who is prettier than me and more sexual than me (she does onlyfans)and more out there (she has a very unique style) so all in all she’s better. I’m nice, and kind and all that stuff, but I always get the bad karma, when people I loved end up in a relationship I’m always the one left to see it happen and to end up feeling like I’m not worthy of feeling love, or feeling like I have someone there who wants to be there for me. I’m sick of being abandoned

Man. I’m sad.

Date posted: 46w ago

My love she was easier to get. She maybe has no morals or self respect clearly is she’s on only fans. Don’t ever degrade yourself like this trust me when I say this there’s a man out there that won’t even let you go home without sending you home in a car or a man that will get you food before even asking cause he knows you hungry. F that lil boy you was with his mind is obviously weak from what it sounds like. Getting her pregnant is his way of trapping her to my love trust me you can do better I’m not saying it’s easy to move on from someone cause I def know it’s not nowhere easy especially if you have lots of history but you have better worth than that ml

blazed

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 46w ago

You are worth so much more than you think, and none of this is your fault ❤️ I know your first instinct is to want to blame yourself for everything that’s happened, which is a totally normal and understandable reaction. But I promise you that this actually has nothing to do with you - it’s 100% on him and his character (or lack thereof). I’ve been abandoned many times too and it’s never easy to deal with. There’s a lot of grief, frustration, and sadness involved but eventually you will find peace again and realize that you’re better off without him. Be kind to yourself and give yourself as much time as you need to heal.

elliss2

Date posted: 46w ago

That’s tough, and I can really emphasize how you would initially feel worthless because of all of this. What happened to you is not fair. But I agree with Man.I‘msad. Those are very good points, although, once again, it feels totally shitty.

anxiousashhh

Date posted: 13w ago

idk

I feel like I’ll never lead a normal life again with OCD, my thoughts have begun to be convince especially about POCD. I feel like so sad and down that this will be my life forever. I’ll never get to fall in love again without intrusive thoughts. I’ll never be worth falling in love with. I can never be intimate again. I’m just done, my life is over. I can’t even look at my nephew and niece anymore without the smile fading. It feels like I’m so nasty and then my brain convinces me this is how I feel. That there’s some part of me that is a p*do and that’s it. I’m a disgusting human being for that. I just feel hopeless

Infectedpick...

Date posted: 8w ago

Everyday is a constant cycle of regret and misery

Everyday I wake up, all my mind makes me think of is the stuff I’ve done in the past, like all day I’m in a constant cycle of judging who I used to be and it hurts so so much. I wish I never thought to do those things, I wish I had been more mature than how I was before, it’s really lowering my self worth and I don’t think I’ve ever felt this miserable before, like last summer was the worst because I was dealing with this shit, I about almost ended my life over it, and I thought it would get better, which it did, but it didn’t last but for a while. As soon as it became 2025 I was going through it again, having constant cycles of “I’m a good person” to “I’m the worst person imaginable” and I’m so sick of it because I just want to feel like the good person l like to imagine myself to be, but I can’t because of shit I did in the past that I obsess over. I’ve cried and screamed so much over it and it seems like it will never leave me.

tammmy_rose1215

Date posted: 8w ago

Substance abuse

Honestly I’ve never felt like the worst person ever , all my life I’ve always struggle with fitting in and making a good friend group, and I always think I don’t do enough for anybody and sometimes when I feel like somebody is becoming cold or distant I make sure to keep a distant too out of respect or a mechanism to help me not feel hurt , as a result a friend of mine did this and I stayed away because I had no idea what she was going through and my other friend who I’ve met at the beginning of the year I’ve never had a good feeling abt her because I noticed her starting to be really flirty with my boyfriend and when I tried talking to somebody about it , she twisted the entire situation to her assuming I was sl*t shaming her, which I’d never do that is not in my dictionary , so when I arrived to school everyone said she was saying really bad things about me and what’s worse is that she did this two months ago and I found out last week I cried to all of them about it and they ignored me they all laughed and just left me there to cry , I tried talking to my friend who slowly grew distant instead I noticed her getting closer to the friend who wronged me . I noticed all my friends growing a distant , I slowly felt like I failed as friend and then I slowly starting convincing myself i was a failure in general , so as a result, I turned to marijuana and cough medicine, and multiple dealers reach out weekly so I can buy more stuff , and what’s worse is that I know these people are not good friends but I still let them get to my head and on top of that I resort to substance abuse to help with my overthinking and anxiety , I need advice

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