Disheartened

My ex got his new gf pregnant after 3 weeks of being with her, I was with him exclusively for a year and he wouldn’t ask me to be his gf. I feel absolutely horrific and worthless, why does she get this man who takes her out on dates and makes it all happy, why does he act like an arse hole to me on nights out every time and I end up crying. Why is she better than me? The thing is, there’s a 50/50 chance it’s not his, I don’t know if he knows but she was sleeping with her ex and him when they were dating, however my brain doesn’t think of that shit situation, it doesn’t think about the drama that’s gonna happen for the fact there’s cheating involved, I just always think of the fact that I got left for another girl who is prettier than me and more sexual than me (she does onlyfans)and more out there (she has a very unique style) so all in all she’s better. I’m nice, and kind and all that stuff, but I always get the bad karma, when people I loved end up in a relationship I’m always the one left to see it happen and to end up feeling like I’m not worthy of feeling love, or feeling like I have someone there who wants to be there for me. I’m sick of being abandoned

Man. I’m sad.

Date posted: 41w ago

My love she was easier to get. She maybe has no morals or self respect clearly is she’s on only fans. Don’t ever degrade yourself like this trust me when I say this there’s a man out there that won’t even let you go home without sending you home in a car or a man that will get you food before even asking cause he knows you hungry. F that lil boy you was with his mind is obviously weak from what it sounds like. Getting her pregnant is his way of trapping her to my love trust me you can do better I’m not saying it’s easy to move on from someone cause I def know it’s not nowhere easy especially if you have lots of history but you have better worth than that ml

blazed

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 41w ago

You are worth so much more than you think, and none of this is your fault ❤️ I know your first instinct is to want to blame yourself for everything that’s happened, which is a totally normal and understandable reaction. But I promise you that this actually has nothing to do with you - it’s 100% on him and his character (or lack thereof). I’ve been abandoned many times too and it’s never easy to deal with. There’s a lot of grief, frustration, and sadness involved but eventually you will find peace again and realize that you’re better off without him. Be kind to yourself and give yourself as much time as you need to heal.

elliss2

Date posted: 41w ago

That’s tough, and I can really emphasize how you would initially feel worthless because of all of this. What happened to you is not fair. But I agree with Man.I‘msad. Those are very good points, although, once again, it feels totally shitty.

King silly

Date posted: 25w ago

Can’t do this.

I started feeling better, more calm and relaxed but then I remembered that I’m literally heartbroken and single and I went back to feeling like shit again, all the anxiety came storming back. Why does it have to be this way, I don’t know what to do with my life anymore.

aza holmes

Date posted: 23w ago

Love

I’m confused. I think I’ve gotten progressively more boy crazy and more of a hopeless romantic, but I’ve completely manipulated myself into thinking that boys just don’t like me and I think it’s a fact. In the past, I was confused and lost on what my sexuality was so I would be in a lot of “flirty” friendships thinking that I genuinely liked my female friends I had these friendships with but that was far from the truth. I can’t imagine myself being with a woman but for some reason it’s just easier for me to talk and flirt with them. I have trauma involving why I brainwashed myself into thinking that I’m a magnet that repels boys from me and I still think that and it’s ruining my brain. (I have a crush on this guy and texted him for the first time, he never replied!!!) which honestly proves my point even more. Am I right or is just all in my head? Some advice please!!

magsbelle

Date posted: 4w ago

Intrusive thoughts on valentine’s day

I’ve been single for a very long time. I’ve always attached really heavily to people and highly prioritized being in a relationship. I know I can be happy on my own but sometimes all i can think about is how I wish someone loved me like that, it consumes my entire brain. For that reason Valentine’s day feels pretty sad to me. I’m gonna have to stay off social media so i don’t see people posting about how much they love their significant others because i know it’ll make me spiral. Also since it’s valentine’s day i keep having intrusive thoughts of my loved ones having sex and it feels really gross.

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