Cheating?

Cheating OCD Anybody deal with cheating OCD where they all of a sudden got a panic attack that they may have cheated on their partner when you KNOW they didn’t ??? Like now I’m playing scenarios in my head that feel real???

Does anyone ever wonder if they ever emotionally cheated ? Sometimes I feel like I have In the beginning of the relationship but I’m not too sure or maybe I just in denial and don’t want to admit it . I’ve told my partner about this awhile back . He didn’t know emotionally cheating was a thing and he doesn’t believe in it and told me to let it go so I guess I should let it go . I would say why I question if I emotionally cheated but that’s extra stuff to type . whenever I’m around other males I get feeling like I want them and they feel so real . I honestly don’t truly know what emotionally cheating is but I have a guess and I’m scared to look it up . I guess I’ll say why I feel the way I do . So there was this twitch streamer I had a on and off crush on . I started watching him when I was 18 and his was like 25 . And lived in a different state . It was a unrealistic crush now that a look back at it bc I wouldn’t never happened but I still had a crush on him. When me and my boyfriend first started dating . We were playing a game online and I decided to stream bc I sometimes like to stream and I was looking for that person I used to have a crush on to join the stream and say hi . I sometimes wonder did I still have a crush on him . Was I emotionally cheating . Again, I’ve told my boyfriend all about this . He felt some type of way bc he didn’t know but he didn’t think it was a big deal . But my boyfriend does have cheating ocd . But it’s the type of cheating ocd where he thinks I’m cheating. But it’s like physical type of cheat .Ike when he’s away at work that’s when his thoughts get bad . Bc he thinks I’m sleeping with someone . I never had sex with anyone ever besides him . When he talks to me about his cheating ocd it triggers mine lol. I guess I should let all this go idk.

My brain feels so loud like I’m getting thoughts about my partner cheating on me and I hate it I know he would never but my thoughts keep coming up like every time his phone goes off my intrusive thoughts is like what is it’s a girl or something like that and it’s horrible because I’m not the sort of person to think these sort of things like he loves me so much and I love him so much and my thoughts are making me analysis everything he does and it’s stressing me out can someone help me please!