Help I'm crazy? 😭

Thanks really 😔🫂 sometimes I feel so so bad, I'm so tired of my brain 🥲 I'm trying to recovery it's extremely hard 🫂thanks again for your words 💕💕

@Anonymous You are not crazy. If you are, then we both are. I am just these days fighting my magical thinking ocd. I really love green olives. I have a small jar of my favorites in front of me. I really want to open it and eat them. They are sure a better and healthier snack than sweets, chocolate or some other junk food. But my ocd wakes up the anxiety in me and yells at me not to do it, because I will have an argument with someone or sth will go the wrong way or sth bad will happen. There is this drink, non alcoholic, iso tonic, helps body stay hydrated. It tastes great, not too sweet. And it is also sold at a really good price in comparison to all others in its category. But evertime I drink it, in the same day or even in the following few days, something will happen I don't like, do it has become a no-no drink for me. If I eat mango, witch I hardly ever do, cause I cat get used to it's pine nuts like taste, I can expect that my hubby will for no apparent reason become irritated by me, forget that I have ocd and will hurt my feelings more than he could ever imagine. And it doesn't stop here. It gets even weirder. If I put on an eyeshadow that is not my regular colour (even if they come from the same company and the very same box, I can't use the other ones. Just my 2 usual ones. Why? Because if I do, I will hear, see sth that will trigger my ocd (I have a fear of feeling anxious and exhausted due to compulsions) and I will have to go through all the ocd's demanded compulsions, which will leave me tired,... Yeah, I do go against my magical thinking from time to time. Nothing really bad usually happens. But it takes just one time, one occasion, one argument, one song that upsets me, one person that makes me feel bad, that my ocd turns it to a bulletproof fact that it was right and I was wrong. Please eat the ice cream. Let this be your victory over your ocd and at the same time a victory for all of us that feel that dome weird associations make sense even if we know for sure they don't. Reasoning with ocd is useless and futile. I hope you enjoy the ice-cream and I promise I will eat at least one green olive today. Come what it may. Just kidding. Both of us will be just fine. 🤗🍨 🫒👍😊♥️

@NODA Thanks really 💕🫂for your words I'm so sorry for the late reply I wasn't at home, but thanks again you make me feel I'm not alone and I not crazy, sometimes we don't talk about it and we think probably nobody understands how we feel about it, but ahhhhh makes me feel so much better I'm not alone 💕🫂in this hard process ocd and intrusive thoughts are the worst, and be available to share this without feeling bad 🫂 yes it's hard but we can sometimes it's extremely hard and painful, you can understand that 🥲 but we're more than our ocd we still fighting and we can a better life HAPPY LIFE without ocd we can thanks again for sharing this 💕