feeling panicked

i’ve had a pretty good day after my harm thoughts relapse. however, i still will get this feeling of dread and state of panic when the thoughts try and take over my mind. i was in the bathroom brushing my teeth and it hit me hard for a minute, but now i’m okay. i just keep thinking about last summer and how i REALLY do not want to repeat that. i want to have a good summer. i don’t have a therapist and am not able to get one at the moment. i’m not even diagnosed and trying to get my mom to get me a call on here is not looking good. so i need advice on how manage that feeling because when i feel it coming on, i start to think about what if those thoughts, urges, and feelings will be my life for forever. that makes it so much harder to try and sit in the discomfort and let my thoughts just be thoughts while still proceeding on with my life.

Username: Bunnyox Bunnyox

Date posted: 27w ago

I feel this! I also need to talk to someone about this , no one knows what goes through my head and I never want them to know

Username: flowerpetalsflowerpetals

Date posted: 27w ago

@Bunnyox me too! the only person who knows outside of people from nocd is my mom. however, i’ve barely scratched the surface with her because she’s not educated on ocd. and i don’t want her to be scared of me

Username: Bunnyox Bunnyox

Date posted: 27w ago

@flowerpetals Exactly, for me it’s mainly when I get mad or overthink about something clearly in front of me

Username: cocacolaacocacolaa

Date posted: 27w ago

I have harm OCD theme already a year, because of that I am avoiding social interactions with my friends, but I am trying to do exposures and still hanging out with them, also yesterday I went to gym alone, even though I have these thoughts 24/7💕 I will be happy if I don’t miss good summer days because of my OCD, this is my story 🩷 If u want to talk about your harm thoughts, I am always here

Username: flowerpetalsflowerpetals

Date posted: 27w ago

@cocacolaa i had hard thoughts starting from the age was 10. it started because of a show i believe, the walking dead. i was laying in bed with my sister when all of a sudden i had the visual was hurting her with a knife. being 10 and thinking about that was terrifying. i didn’t know what it meant. i was scared to talk to my mom about it because i thought i was psychotic. ever since then, it’s been off and on. however, it really started to pick last year. now it’s been a full year since then always being there even if they’re faint and i barely think about them. they’re still there

Username: flowerpetalsflowerpetals

Date posted: 27w ago

@flowerpetals harm*

Username: Lilly2442!Lilly2442!

Date posted: 27w ago

The feeling of dread and panic when the things come into your mind is something I can relate too! Every-time these thoughts pop up in my mind I get so anxious and just remember how bad it felt to feel like that. It’s so hard especially the urges

Username: flowerpetalsflowerpetals

Date posted: 27w ago

@Lilly2442! i relate to this so much. it’s so hard to not to fall back into the anxiety these thoughts give me, but i continue to keep pushing through as best as i can

Username: Taylen

Date posted: 2y ago

im so stressed, pls reply

my anxiety has been so bad the past couple of days, ive been disassociating several times a day. Its so hard to be alone because of the intrusive thoughts. I barely can even look at my family without vivid images coming in my head. Im so scared i keep asking myself “what if i wanna do it?” “what if i rlly am crazy” “maybe i am my thoughts” “would i ever do this” “what if i just lose control one day”. I dont know anymore im so lost and depressed i just wanna crawl out of my own skin. Someone please give advice because nothing is working. Keep in mind im undiagnosed and i feel so alone and i know i have harm ocd but the doctors and therapist in my state dont care to listen. They wont even give me anything for anxiety, my life is being ruined and im only 13. I just want it to go away, im trying to keep faith in god but i just wish he would help me faster.

Username: Catlove9

Date posted: 48w ago

PLEASE HELP: The thoughts are getting worse

I will preface this by saying I understand the goal is to not get rid of the thoughts but instead learn to tolerate the anxiety and uncomfortable feelings. But the thoughts/feelings/urges are getting worse. It’s to the point where it feels like I either want this or that there’s no way around it. I’m starting to feel like I’m not inside my body which is making it even scarier. I cannot even describe the amount of fear I feel right now. I am absolutely terrified. It feels like I’m about to snap at any moment and I just want to tie myself down. On top of this, because I'm having this experience, it feels like I need to be locked away. It feels like reality is slipping away. Please give me any advice you have. Logically I know all of this is just a thought but I cannot get over it.

Harm OCD

Username: flowerpetals

Date posted: 28w ago

ocd attack

okay this is my third and hopefully final post of the night, but i think i’m having an ocd attack. it was so weird because i was just scrolling through tiktok when it came up on me all of a sudden. at first i just felt like there was a threat, mentally. i can’t describe what it felt like but it didn’t feel good. i almost felt like i was out of my body. it kept going and typically i talk to my mom when this stuff happens but she’s asleep so i had to manage. i tried getting my mind off of it by listening to music and playing a game but it wasn’t working well. so then i did some deep breathing and then the harm thoughts and urges started rolling in. i obviously have them everyday but it’s been background noise for a while now, so it hit me like a thousand bricks tonight. it felt so real and terrifying. then i got nauseous which was bringing in my emetaphobia. now i have an ice pack on my neck (i think the cold can help) and am listening to meditation music while telling myself this will pass. however, i wasn’t before, but now i’m terrified this summer will be like the last.

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