Crushing on same sex character?

@banana142 That's my point. You may or you may not. There is nothing wrong with either. When you accept that you will be you which is way better than worrying about what sexuality you are. At the end of the day you are you and buckets are just words.

@banana142 Just like thoughs are just thoughts you may be straight. The point is there is no way to know. You have to do what just makes you happy. My girlfriend who is straight as a arrow and doesn't have OCD was looking at girls up and down the whole time at the concert we went to last night, because she felt there butts looked nice haha! Being confident in your sexuality isn't saying your straight or gay or bi it's being comfortable with you.

@banana142 Why? There is nothing wrong with it. Especially in today's society you can be you. If you don't like women and only want to be with men then do that. My point with all of this is take a step back. Look at do these thoughts really matter or am I making them matter cause I'm scared.

@banana142 Don't apologize at all this is the process :) I felt straight for 19 years and OCD thought I was gay 4 years and then after I let go of the fear found that I like both and thats what I do now. But I am in a committed happy long term relationship with my girlfriend who is straight and accepts me as I am. I plan to have kids with her and very long future. Your sexuality is not something to be afraid of it's you it's the same as seeing a the color blue and saying I like that. Then seeing the color red and going oh no do I like the color red??? Maybe you do or maybe you don't the point is not to be afraid of it.

@banana142 - Man, that was really triggering, I'm just so done for today

What things did you do physically that show your atraction to man?

@banana142 I became TRIGGERED. My theme is being bisexual and I’m at the point in my life where I’m like “Well, heck, maybe I am.” Even though I did identify as bisexual first.

@Nicolas:) 😂 Lol! That was me like!🫠

@LovingLaura - I'm still trigger, I'm starting to feel like the false atraction I have now, it's really not anxiety induce, like I didn't have them before outside the intrusive thoughs I had from when I was 13, like for example, from 5 to 13 I liked girls withouth questioning, never had a crush on a dude or anything, then when I was 13 I had an intrusive thoughs "What if Im gay" and then "Maybe you like that guy" and a face show up of a guy who seem odd to me and the more anxious I got the more "atraction" I felt, but then I just imagine naked dudes and was like, okay I don't like, then I imagine that same guy naked, and I was like, and definetly not into that, so after that I felt relieve, and the rest of the year I didn't had another though, I even spoke with that guy normally withouth feeling like I was crushing or anything, he still seem odd tho, but he was metrosexual, he told me later and explain to me what that was and then I stopped thinking he was weird. After that during my 14's I didn't had any trigger that I can remenber and I didn't felt atraction to any dude, at 15 I had two triggers, there were two dudes that came close to my face and I though I would lose control and kissed them and I was unconfortable, but then again, after the moment past I talk to them normaly and just didn't felt any "crush" or anything like that, then at 16 I had one more trigger cause I though a guy looked like an actor, but then I started to feel like I was into the guy who looked like an actor, and then I calmed down cause checking whatsapp I saw a pic of a friend of mine and I was like, damn she's hot, and I was like, yeah, what ever was with that dude, it's not the same thing, after that pandemic hit, no particular triggers I can't remenber, except one night I was thinking about this stuff, out of the blue, and I though I had "something" hidden inside me cause all the past stuff I just said so I decided to "come out" and I was like, okay I'm bi, but 20min later I just got the intrusive thoughs again saying I was gay, and stuff, and a year after that I was using a hot girl as reassurance I wasn't gay, but then I though, you could be bi though, and the I started fearing that, for a while after that, I even got to the point were I was sure I wasn't bi either, but my brain said I had to be somewhat gay, cause I couldn' believe that during all of those 4 years that false atraction was false, and trust me, I felt it every day like to 25 different dudes, in my class, on tv shows, at this point I barely watch anything cause there are triggers everywhere, anyway I wasn't confortable with "somewhat" gay either, but eventually I came back here fearing I'm bi, I don't even remenber what particular though set of this obssesion again