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@Frei Thank you, I’m very confused and frustrated about it. I went years without worrying about a lot of things that turned out to be really bad, so sometimes I wonder maybe I really didn’t realize how wrong certain things were if I went so long without even thinking about it. But I just still feel so gross. It feels so wrong to not worry about it and just move forward. I plan to talk to a therapist about it one day. I can accept that I did wrong but it’s just hard not to keep thinking of things. Thank you for taking the time to respond, it feels kind of relieving I thought I was going to have someone respond and be grossed out