Bad Feeling

I don’t know if this will help, but I’ve been doing some IFS (Internal Family Systems) work with my therapist. And even before we got into it, this one concept really helped me and maybe you can apply it. Basically in IFS, you have all these various parts and then a core Self. And when you are in Self, you feel: calm confident curious clear courageous content creative consistent connected compassionate When I have an “inner knowing,” I’m in a clear, calm state of mind. I might be scared about following through on what I need to do, but I’m not in a fearful state. If it’s “ocd lies,” I’m anxious, afraid, unsettled, unwell. I’m not myself. It does get tricky though because I’ve been super anxious and upset about a topic and it seems like it’s just OCD, but then a therapist asked me a clarifying question and I thought, “Oh. That sounds like truth.” And it felt like clarity. So for me, sometimes the knowing was almost imbedded in the rumination and fear, but someone else’s words helped me clear away all the noise. Yeah, my knowing is not noisy. It’s a clear tone. Who knows if any of that will work for you, but it’s been an interesting exercise to think about. Hope you find some clarity.

Just sit with it, you can never really know I think that if you don’t want to be with someone for a certain period of time (at your discretion) it means something is off. I felt like I wanted to be alone sometimes in a relationship and was worried that meant I didn’t like my girlfriend, but I still wanted to see her in at least a day so I knew I wanted to be with her no matter what my mind said.

You don’t. That’s the trouble with ROCD.

It’s OCD