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- 5y
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- 5y
I can totally relate. My OCD started when my two daughters were very young and I feel I have missed so much time with them over the years because of this terrible disorder. Really, it pains me to actually admit how much of life I have missed. But, I am continuing with professional help this time and not trying to manage this on my own without really understanding what I am up against. It is helping, but this is also a slow process and I am understanding now this is chronic and that is why it always comes back even if you felt you answered that one questions once and for all! Does not matter. Doubt will spin up again as will the intrusive thoughts. At least that is how it’s worked for me. I wish you all the best in your journey. OCD cannot take you from your children! You are and will be an amazing mother! Keep it up!!
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- 5y
I’m very sorry to hear this. I’m only 15 and do not have any babies so I’m not an expert in this field but the best thing I could say right now is that you have not lost your motherhood. Your baby girl is only 1 and a half years old. That is just the beginning! Having OCD didn’t stop you. I hope finding help will get your life back together. It’ll work out and you’ll be an awesome mom❤️
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 5y
I’m so sorry to hear this ?? I hope you know how great it is that you’re seeking help and doing what you have to in order to feel better , that’s amazing because not everyone does get the help they deserve. I totally understand why you’re upset over this , it’s a very frustrating and devastating experience ! My advice to you would be to not think too much about everything HOCD has taken from you , because by doing that you’re letting it know that it’s getting to you and that you can’t enjoy yourself because of it. Accept that the anxiety is present and that you’re upset , but tell yourself that it can’t stop you from living your best life or being an amazing mother.
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- 5y
I have to say i have hocd too and it came about after loseing my pregnancy after 5 months. I had it when i was younger and over came it and now its back. I think the stress of what i went through caused me to go down some old brain pathways and stirred it up. It started as health ocd and dropped down into hocd. Also i think the crazy hormones dont help anything too.
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- 24w
I keep having this weird feeling none stop that it’s most likely not HOCD and most my feelings. Like I’ve suffered none stop distress and unwanted thoughts the past few days. But those thoughts after a bit just feel weird not the kind of discomfort but are just their and stale. When I look at a guy I don’t feel anything but my thoughts sometimes compliment his looks or personality which makes me doubt my sexuality. I’ve never felt this weirded out. Because I’ve always been straight and still believe I am but I’ve never even had an emotional connection to someone of the opposite gender in fact. My view of the female body has been ruined with none stop pornography addictions. I don’t believe I’m gay but I feel like it may just be denial instead of HOCD but all my symptoms are literally HOCD. I don’t hate the idea of gay people but I can’t imagine or see my heart going off to like someone of the same sex. I haven’t really had any meaningful real life friends besides online but that also ended a few months ago. My only friend ever online that was my friend for the longest of time was a queer but I never really cared about what he liked. Like yes at some point I did try to challenge him with his own feelings but that didn’t last long I just accepted what he liked and moved on. I’ve never even touched let alone held a long conversation with a female. I’ve always been timid and shy around them but I can just say that towards male as well. The gay feelings feel so real. The thoughts feel a bit natural to me but I don’t want this. But I hate how I can’t just move on and be myself and love women when those thoughts demand attention and an answer. It won’t quit it. If I try to do a compulsion it calms down but it quickly becomes a problem again. I’m lonely I don’t have any friends or past relationships I can even think of helping me with the emotions. I still believe I’m straight and I just can’t see myself with a guy. It just doesn’t feel right for me despite my lack of experiences. I just wanna go back to how I was happy and loving girls and not having to question if it was a real feeling or just my natural timid nature. Everytime I think these distressing thoughts I always just wanna sit down and close my eyes and sleep. Because that’s where I can have peace of self. It sucks but I’m so exhausted of having to deal with emotional distress and I can’t even focus on my job as much. I want to meet new people discover my love for women again but I’m scared in the process I may discover I may be gay. Because deep down I know I wouldn’t ever be happy with myself if my greatest fears where confirmed. My dream of always being a father with a loving women and kids would be torn away by something I never asked for. Yes I’m religious, yes I come from a place that homosexuals are usually seen in a bad light. I just hate feeling this emotion that I may not be what I thought and having my dreams torn apart maybe true. I’ve read MUTIPLE articles about HOCD and seen MUTIPLE videos. I’ve come to the realization that I most likely have it. But it’s still hard when the feelings of maybe being gay maybe true you know? I hope I get better I hope I don’t suffer. I just wanna be happy with myself and loving females and I don’t wanna hate myself for feeling an emotion that never occurred to me more then a few times.
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- 21w
I have HOCD and my biggest dream is becoming a mother. However, with my intrusive thoughts/images I’ve stopped trying to conceive. Is there any other people that has been going through this same fear?
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- 18w
One mistake with my POCD thoughts and compulsions, and now I'm a terrible mom. I was amazing five months ago. Now I feel like I'm what I've always feared I'd be. I hate POCD. I just want to be a mom. I really do. I really need some support today
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