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- 5y ago
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I can totally relate. My OCD started when my two daughters were very young and I feel I have missed so much time with them over the years because of this terrible disorder. Really, it pains me to actually admit how much of life I have missed. But, I am continuing with professional help this time and not trying to manage this on my own without really understanding what I am up against. It is helping, but this is also a slow process and I am understanding now this is chronic and that is why it always comes back even if you felt you answered that one questions once and for all! Does not matter. Doubt will spin up again as will the intrusive thoughts. At least that is how it’s worked for me. I wish you all the best in your journey. OCD cannot take you from your children! You are and will be an amazing mother! Keep it up!!
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I’m very sorry to hear this. I’m only 15 and do not have any babies so I’m not an expert in this field but the best thing I could say right now is that you have not lost your motherhood. Your baby girl is only 1 and a half years old. That is just the beginning! Having OCD didn’t stop you. I hope finding help will get your life back together. It’ll work out and you’ll be an awesome mom❤️
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I’m so sorry to hear this ?? I hope you know how great it is that you’re seeking help and doing what you have to in order to feel better , that’s amazing because not everyone does get the help they deserve. I totally understand why you’re upset over this , it’s a very frustrating and devastating experience ! My advice to you would be to not think too much about everything HOCD has taken from you , because by doing that you’re letting it know that it’s getting to you and that you can’t enjoy yourself because of it. Accept that the anxiety is present and that you’re upset , but tell yourself that it can’t stop you from living your best life or being an amazing mother.
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I have to say i have hocd too and it came about after loseing my pregnancy after 5 months. I had it when i was younger and over came it and now its back. I think the stress of what i went through caused me to go down some old brain pathways and stirred it up. It started as health ocd and dropped down into hocd. Also i think the crazy hormones dont help anything too.
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- 22w ago
I am so angry with ocd. I hate that ocd even exists. I wouldn’t necessarily say I wanted to be a mom when I was younger. I grew up without my mom around. But now my sisters are both moms and I see them and I feel like I’m missing out. But having pocd and hocd has definitely made me feel like it’s completely out of the question. I even made sure my fiancé knew that I didn’t want children/ feel like I can’t have them for fear of hurting them or passing on mental health issues. I was abused growing up and one of my old therapists told me that “people who are abused can become abusers”. That is something that I am not willing to risk. And even though I feel set on that choice, my brain still tells me that I’m missing out. So I’m constantly questioning if I truly feel like I don’t want them or if ocd is convincing me I don’t. Ugh. It’s just so frustrating.
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- 17w ago
Every day my ocd makes sure there’s a new reason for me to stay trapped in my mind rather than being the mom I want to be that my kids need. Instead i’m stuck in my head depressed and pushing them away. The other day I was braiding my daughter’s hair like I always do and her hair is really long so when I get to the end of the braid I can see her butt in my peripheral vision and I looked down and I immediately got upset asking myself why did I look down?(the ocd has made me question everything I do now). I know it’s just because I was at the end of the braid and I just looked because I was already looking in that direction. A normal person wouldn’t even think twice about it. There was no inappropriate reason behind it at all but of course my ocd latched onto the situation and said I looked down because I wanted to look at her butt. I was so upset and said to myself “I don’t understand how the ocd started an intrusive thought because she was wearing baggy pants. I could understand if she had on tight pants and her butt was more noticeable” and the only reason I said that is because usually the only time my ocd starts intrusive thoughts telling me i’m looking at my daughter in a wrong way is when she has on leggings or a crop top or bathing suit ect. Now my ocd twisted what I said to mean that I like looking at her in tight pants. Nooo! That’s not what I meant but now the ocd won’t stop trying to make me believe that. I don’t ever look at my children in any inappropriate way. I hate this. I hate ocd and I can’t live like this anymore.
- Date posted
- 17w ago
Since I developed ocd as postpartum my ocd has mostly always targeted my kids. It started as harm and then switched to pocd. Both are equally very painful. For years I was mostly able to keep my ocd at bay but when it comes back it’s so bad. I have a son and a daughter and my ocd switches back and forth from kid to kid with horrible intrusive thoughts and now even intrusive ocd dreams. With each thought I get past and start to feel relief another one pops right up. The thoughts feel so real and true even though I know it’s just the ocd and not how I think or feel, the ocd always makes me doubt myself and question everything I think or do. I know other moms/dads go through this too. Please anyone who has or is going through this please tell me how you deal with this. 😪
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