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- 5y
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- 5y
I can totally relate. My OCD started when my two daughters were very young and I feel I have missed so much time with them over the years because of this terrible disorder. Really, it pains me to actually admit how much of life I have missed. But, I am continuing with professional help this time and not trying to manage this on my own without really understanding what I am up against. It is helping, but this is also a slow process and I am understanding now this is chronic and that is why it always comes back even if you felt you answered that one questions once and for all! Does not matter. Doubt will spin up again as will the intrusive thoughts. At least that is how it’s worked for me. I wish you all the best in your journey. OCD cannot take you from your children! You are and will be an amazing mother! Keep it up!!
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- 5y
I’m very sorry to hear this. I’m only 15 and do not have any babies so I’m not an expert in this field but the best thing I could say right now is that you have not lost your motherhood. Your baby girl is only 1 and a half years old. That is just the beginning! Having OCD didn’t stop you. I hope finding help will get your life back together. It’ll work out and you’ll be an awesome mom❤️
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 5y
I’m so sorry to hear this ?? I hope you know how great it is that you’re seeking help and doing what you have to in order to feel better , that’s amazing because not everyone does get the help they deserve. I totally understand why you’re upset over this , it’s a very frustrating and devastating experience ! My advice to you would be to not think too much about everything HOCD has taken from you , because by doing that you’re letting it know that it’s getting to you and that you can’t enjoy yourself because of it. Accept that the anxiety is present and that you’re upset , but tell yourself that it can’t stop you from living your best life or being an amazing mother.
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- 5y
I have to say i have hocd too and it came about after loseing my pregnancy after 5 months. I had it when i was younger and over came it and now its back. I think the stress of what i went through caused me to go down some old brain pathways and stirred it up. It started as health ocd and dropped down into hocd. Also i think the crazy hormones dont help anything too.
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- 22w
Idk if this post is even worth it but it seemed like a normal day for me, called off work due to the weather so I get to just stay home and play games all day. Easy day besides dealing with the constant and unbearable battle with my intrusive thoughts/feelings. Took a shower and I just had constant thoughts, (heart palpitations are pretty constant) ended up breaking down and bawling my eyes out. I was diagnosed with HOCD and ROCD about 2 months ago and since it's just gotten worse. It feels as real as it can get and after talking to my girlfriend about the anxiety attack, it feels even more real. I have no desire or enjoyment from what comes from my brain, and at this point I'm on my knees begging the big man upstairs for my old life back, how do I go from being obsessed with women (sexually and emotionally) to pretty much doing a 180 overnight (with the obvious anxiety and worry behind it. No real desire obviously). I'm just at a loss, I've done a little ERP and it seemed to help with the brain fog but besides that, everything that it does to someone, I have. And again there's the doubt I even have OCD and I'm in straight denial. It just sucks.
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- 17w
I’ve completely lost myself. I can’t focus on my studies, I can’t go to the gym. Dang it I can’t even be around my male friends normally anymore. I got no idea why or how this happened but the only thing I know for sure is that I never questioned my sexuality neither doubted it. I never cared in general. I just liked girls. I keep testing and keep testing and keep testing my arousal but no matter how many times I see but I don’t feel the same way for guys that I do with girls my mind will always try to make me believe that I am gay. It’s like it’s forcing me into an identity I never asked for. But at the end of the day like my psychologist told me. Sexuality doesn’t change. So since I never felt anything for guys in my life it’s ocd. I’ve been up and down for 5 months now and while the last week I was feeling way better. Monday now and I’m back to zero. I just want to go back when everything was normal. I can’t keep living with this.
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- 9w
I don’t know what to do with this bs anymore. I’m crying again and again and again and again. I cannot describe how painful this is. I’ve recovered from every single OCD subtype expect this one. HOCD is so scary and it’s so incredibly scary how it feels so real. The issue with this subtype is how intertwined it is with feelings and sensations. I hate how it keeps latching onto the past and uses the past as proof. I don’t want it to be the truth. I don’t want to accept any possibility.
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