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I can totally relate. My OCD started when my two daughters were very young and I feel I have missed so much time with them over the years because of this terrible disorder. Really, it pains me to actually admit how much of life I have missed. But, I am continuing with professional help this time and not trying to manage this on my own without really understanding what I am up against. It is helping, but this is also a slow process and I am understanding now this is chronic and that is why it always comes back even if you felt you answered that one questions once and for all! Does not matter. Doubt will spin up again as will the intrusive thoughts. At least that is how it’s worked for me. I wish you all the best in your journey. OCD cannot take you from your children! You are and will be an amazing mother! Keep it up!!
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- 5y
I’m very sorry to hear this. I’m only 15 and do not have any babies so I’m not an expert in this field but the best thing I could say right now is that you have not lost your motherhood. Your baby girl is only 1 and a half years old. That is just the beginning! Having OCD didn’t stop you. I hope finding help will get your life back together. It’ll work out and you’ll be an awesome mom❤️
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- 5y
I’m so sorry to hear this ?? I hope you know how great it is that you’re seeking help and doing what you have to in order to feel better , that’s amazing because not everyone does get the help they deserve. I totally understand why you’re upset over this , it’s a very frustrating and devastating experience ! My advice to you would be to not think too much about everything HOCD has taken from you , because by doing that you’re letting it know that it’s getting to you and that you can’t enjoy yourself because of it. Accept that the anxiety is present and that you’re upset , but tell yourself that it can’t stop you from living your best life or being an amazing mother.
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I have to say i have hocd too and it came about after loseing my pregnancy after 5 months. I had it when i was younger and over came it and now its back. I think the stress of what i went through caused me to go down some old brain pathways and stirred it up. It started as health ocd and dropped down into hocd. Also i think the crazy hormones dont help anything too.
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- 22w
Please read this. I’ve had ocd pretty much a lot of my life but never knew what it was until my senior year of highschool. I’m 21 with 2 kids and i believe i’ve had pocd a little bit before my daughter was born (which was 8 months ago). It made me start looking at all kids differently and i hate it. But it really started triggering me about 3 months ago. I’ve been thinking if i’d intentionally touched or harmed my kids the wrong way, or any kids for that matter. This started giving me false memories (or at least hope they are). I’ve been having panic attacks, yelling at myself, punching walls, praying, and even thoughts of ending my own life. I grew up in a severe toxic household throughout my childhood and teenage life. I’ve never wished that on my kids since i became a dad. I wanna give them the life i never got. I look back my photos of my children and i feel like i’m a complete fraud of a dad. I cannot look at my kids or be around them a lot of times. I can’t hold my daughter right. I can’t change their diaper when they need it. Even my son came and was hugging on me the other night while i was watching tv and i acted like a stranger to him. I can very little do this stuff sometimes because it’s either i get relief or i push my thoughts as far back as i can. I get scared if i did something to not just my kids, but any other kids in the past. I have such a a great life and such a beautiful family. It was hard and stressful at first being young with a family but i couldn’t be more thankful at all for them. I’m just so lost and stressed right now that i just don’t know what to do anymore
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- 13w
As a lesbian with SO-OCD, I feel so helpless. It's truly exhausting because no one I know understands what I'm going through. The first response is always, "You're just confused" or "You don't have to know yet." But that's not the issue, I do know. I just never see any lesbians with SO-OCD so I feel so invalidated. These thoughts flood my brain constantly, forcing me to analyze my reactions to every man I see. I feel trapped in an endless cycle of "testing" myself, trying to prove that I don't like them. But my brain fights back, telling me I do want to love a man, making it feel real even though don't want it. It's terrifying. At this point, it's hard to even hold onto my identity as a lesbian because I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know if this is what real attraction is supposed to feel like, and that fear eats away at me. The truth is, when I think about being with a man, all I feel is disgust and fear-but my brain twists that into doubt. I hate it. I'm at the point where I'm scared I'm going to have to accept something I don't want because I don't know if this will ever go away. I miss who I was before all this.
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- 9w
I struggle with HOCD or SOOCD. I’m a married young woman to an amazing husband. I’ve had this since I was 16 but it only came in flair ups. However this round started in October, and it’s been really rough and I would just break down all the time. I went up on my medication and I actually noticed a difference! My thoughts were still very present but I wasn’t really paying attention to them or giving them power. HOWEVER right when I thought I was getting better, my brain started feeling and saying to myself that I just know I am bi but you want to make excuses for it like “oh it’s normal to find someone hot since we as a society have an interpretation of what that looks like” or “I see the girl as myself and that’s what ‘turns’ me on” or “well I mean that girl looks kind of like a man” and it’s it’s making me spiral. I won’t ever come out as Bi as deep in my soul I don’t feel I am. I have always wanted to be with men sexually and romantically and that has not changed but my brain is making me believe I am and I just don’t want to admit it. Please help me, what has helped you?
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