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Im not sure,my sister never showed ocd signs but one day she came to our house i was 17 living with my mom and started crying saying she is having panio attacks and has two voices in her head that are out of her control and speak to ger telling her scary things. At that time i had hocd theme but didn't knew i had ocd and i was highly functional so it was heartbreaking seeing her like that i thought she was gonna go crazy. Thankfully she got over that not sure if completely but she isn't mentioning anything and now i took her spot, ironic how life brings it,my father definitely had issues he left us when i was like 6 months because he was scared he was gonna kill my mother and us,he was really abusive towards my mother and he was extremely perfectionist not sure what he had. My first cousin is bipolar and my other one associal (maybe an extreme introvert not sure where i draw the line)so yeah genetically we have some issues.
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Oh god, I’m so sorry to hear it’s been such a tough time for your family and you. My family was dysfunctional too, and I think OCD (which is likely genetical) is only part of the problem, the other part being people making really bad decisions and not accepting their responsibilities towards their children
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my mom shows definite signs of ocd but she doesn’t “believe in it” so it’s all the more irritating when i try to ask her about mine!
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I’m sorry to hear that. I can’t discuss this stuff with my family either. I just hope that when I have my own kids I’ll be available for them in every struggle they will want to discuss
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@scaredbunny yes! i hope that i will be too. in the meantime, even though we’re on an app and i may never know who you are, that doesn’t matter because i’m always here to talk if you need to :)
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@suuums Awww thank you so much! I love this community
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@scaredbunny of course! and me too :) even though we’re all have our own struggles, everybody is willing to help another person out
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For me, I can never know because of how mental illness is viewed in my culture. I technically was the first one in my family to get a formal diagnosis so now the chain starts with me ?
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Yeah, actually same. I don’t have a diagnosis for my parents either, but some things my mom did and does strongly suggests she’s not ok too. She even has this ‘normal ocd’ with compulsively cleaning stuff and still doesn’t seek help
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Scaredb Thank you, actually my childhood was the best period of my life it was amazing no ocd no bullshit just a kid enjoying life *sign*good times,my father left when i was young so i (thankfully) didn't see or feel any abuse,my life started deteriorating when i hit puberty (13) i suddenly developed social anxiety even though as a kid i was super extroverted and confident than at 15 i developed homosexual ocd so i had a sweet sa ocd combo,i got over sa at around 17 but hocd lasted until 20 where suddenly i developed existamental ocd where i need to be sure people are real that's my theme right now it's the worse i ever got. I know you probably didn't want to learn all that but i wanted to tell that lol
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That’s totally ok to share and you’re not alone with all this now. Do you get help though?
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Offcource, i have went to a therapist not erp based thought but im generaly intelligent so i have spended a lot of time learning about ocd and i have done lot of erp on my own so i am pretty good at the moment like the panic period has passed,im not perfect thought but im generaly fine ☺️
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My dad and my uncle have OCD. But both sides of my family have severe anxiety which I unfortunately inherited.
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My mom seems to show symptoms of OCD but has never been formally diagnosed. Hers seems to be much more mild than mine and different theme but I’m always very positive that seeing her deal with OCD growing up had an effect on the manifestation of mine :P
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I’ve always had OCD, and for most of my life it was little things that seemed manageable at the time or something that would phase out of my head within a couple days/weeks/months. But, the older I got the more severe it became, I’d find myself collapsing deeper and deeper within my own head trying to out think the thoughts that bothered me. About a year ago I had a thought that rattled me to my core. My brothers and I were watching a movie in our mother’s room when my youngest brother turned to me to say something. His close proximity to me triggered a fleeting sexually explicit image in my head and that thought caused me to spiral. Asking questions like, “are you attracted to your minor brother? Are you attracted to minors? Are you gay? Etc.” a couple days went by and my mental stability continued to crumble until I broke down to my mother, she was understanding and we found a a psychiatrist. I got on medication and for a while everything was slowly but surely trending in a positive direction. The thoughts would still pop into my head but they were becoming more manageable. As we all know OCD and mental illness comes in waves. Currently my OCD has been pretty severe. I feel those intrusive thoughts latching on in my head and it’s been very hard to kick them. It’s gotten to the point where I find myself being uncomfortable being in close proximity with my little brother because I feel as though I am capable of harming him in any way. And the more uncomfortable I become being around him the more I find myself lashing out in anger towards the people I care about the most. Those moments of anger cause me to spiral even farther as my head fills with ideas like “what if you are capable of hurting someone or even murdering them?” There’s times where these thoughts rattle me so much that I feel like it would be better to be in prison where I couldn’t harm someone or that even being dead would be a better solution than possibly running the risk of hurting someone in my life I care about. This is about the jist of it, a majority of the OCD I have is centered around the idea that I am capable of harming my little brother physically, mentally, sexually. It’s been exhausting and it feels like there is no end in sight.
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So basically I didn’t know till my hocd started. But looking back at my life I had ocd since I was a kid. Like 6-7 years old. First time happening I remember that when I was doing stuff many times I had to say something like a little poem in my head to stop it. Then I had this thing were if I felt my left foot touch the floor 5 times I had to do the touch the floor with my right foot too. Then I had something I guess contamination??? Basically after washing my hands I had a sensation on my hand like I could still “feel” the germs and I had to wash them again. Then I started having thoughts of my family members getting hurt. I had intrusive thoughts about me hurting my dog. Then I had this obsession that a guy who used to be in my school is looking for me to beat me up. And how it’s this obsession about my sexuality even tho I never doubted or questioned it before. Is that possible??? Like can you be born with it? I’m pretty sure both my parents have it too. At least at some level. Take my father for example he had an obsession that he was going to die the moment he turned 30.
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My mom will sit and listen to me for quite a while, but she interrupts a lot and gets angry/upset. While I appreciate her passion, it's often stressful. Every time I come to her, if I even *mention* OCD, she gets frustrated and says, "Everyone deals with these issues, you know. It doesn't mean it's OCD." And I repeat, "I'm not saying my issues are unique — I'm saying the way I respond to them is a problem." But she just shakes her head and says, "Okay, I need to get back to my day." Full context, I'm an adult, and I live with my boyfriend, but I'm staying at my mom's for the next month. After living away from home for years, I went back to living with her during the pandemic, and I only recently left to live with him. Honestly, I think living with her for so long in my adulthood really messed with me and made me feel like a teenager all over again. I feel like my mental growth is stunted, and that's part of why my OCD is so bad lately. Not blaming, just noticing. She doesn't seem to understand how relieving the OCD diagnosis has been for me, because it explains so so so many things I've struggled with for years, and it's exciting to have more resources that can help me. But I think she sees it as me finding an excuse to *not* work on myself, which is just untrue. I'm not going to let OCD hold me back or use it as an excuse, but I'm also not going to pretend it's not a problem when I know it is — I was even diagnosed through NOCD. The whole point being to fix it, not use it as a crutch. When I have an issue, it's unbearable. Any issue, big or small, feels just the same. I feel a sinking feeling, my mind races, my heart beats out of my chest. I end up running to my support systems, crying, ruminating for days on end. Then, months later, the same exact issue can feel like nothing anymore, because it's no longer an obsession. I'm sure everyone deals with issues in a similar way, but I *know* there is something specific and debilitating going on with me. This is reassurance seeking, but in the face of being told I'm making a big deal out of nothing, can someone diagnosed with OCD tell me if they relate to the specific intensity of these feelings??
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