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Im not sure,my sister never showed ocd signs but one day she came to our house i was 17 living with my mom and started crying saying she is having panio attacks and has two voices in her head that are out of her control and speak to ger telling her scary things. At that time i had hocd theme but didn't knew i had ocd and i was highly functional so it was heartbreaking seeing her like that i thought she was gonna go crazy. Thankfully she got over that not sure if completely but she isn't mentioning anything and now i took her spot, ironic how life brings it,my father definitely had issues he left us when i was like 6 months because he was scared he was gonna kill my mother and us,he was really abusive towards my mother and he was extremely perfectionist not sure what he had. My first cousin is bipolar and my other one associal (maybe an extreme introvert not sure where i draw the line)so yeah genetically we have some issues.
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Oh god, I’m so sorry to hear it’s been such a tough time for your family and you. My family was dysfunctional too, and I think OCD (which is likely genetical) is only part of the problem, the other part being people making really bad decisions and not accepting their responsibilities towards their children
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my mom shows definite signs of ocd but she doesn’t “believe in it” so it’s all the more irritating when i try to ask her about mine!
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I’m sorry to hear that. I can’t discuss this stuff with my family either. I just hope that when I have my own kids I’ll be available for them in every struggle they will want to discuss
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@scaredbunny yes! i hope that i will be too. in the meantime, even though we’re on an app and i may never know who you are, that doesn’t matter because i’m always here to talk if you need to :)
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@suuums Awww thank you so much! I love this community
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@scaredbunny of course! and me too :) even though we’re all have our own struggles, everybody is willing to help another person out
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For me, I can never know because of how mental illness is viewed in my culture. I technically was the first one in my family to get a formal diagnosis so now the chain starts with me ?
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Yeah, actually same. I don’t have a diagnosis for my parents either, but some things my mom did and does strongly suggests she’s not ok too. She even has this ‘normal ocd’ with compulsively cleaning stuff and still doesn’t seek help
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Scaredb Thank you, actually my childhood was the best period of my life it was amazing no ocd no bullshit just a kid enjoying life *sign*good times,my father left when i was young so i (thankfully) didn't see or feel any abuse,my life started deteriorating when i hit puberty (13) i suddenly developed social anxiety even though as a kid i was super extroverted and confident than at 15 i developed homosexual ocd so i had a sweet sa ocd combo,i got over sa at around 17 but hocd lasted until 20 where suddenly i developed existamental ocd where i need to be sure people are real that's my theme right now it's the worse i ever got. I know you probably didn't want to learn all that but i wanted to tell that lol
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That’s totally ok to share and you’re not alone with all this now. Do you get help though?
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Offcource, i have went to a therapist not erp based thought but im generaly intelligent so i have spended a lot of time learning about ocd and i have done lot of erp on my own so i am pretty good at the moment like the panic period has passed,im not perfect thought but im generaly fine ☺️
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My dad and my uncle have OCD. But both sides of my family have severe anxiety which I unfortunately inherited.
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My mom seems to show symptoms of OCD but has never been formally diagnosed. Hers seems to be much more mild than mine and different theme but I’m always very positive that seeing her deal with OCD growing up had an effect on the manifestation of mine :P
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I've suffered with OCD for 50 years with many different themes. SOOCD is my primary theme, and no matter which theme I may be in the middle of it always comes back to SOOCD. I'm back in therapy because after a couple of really good years, I've been in the middle of a flare up. My new therapist with NOCD, recently asked me what my core fear about homosexuallity is. I can't seem to answer that. The only answer that I can come up with, is that it is just egotistic. I'm a heterosexual man who loves my wife and raised three great kids. My question is, have. any ofyou ever been able to answer that question. I would appreciate any thoughts on this question. Thank you and have a great day.
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What should I do? I already talked to my mom and we worked it out, but OCD won't leave it alone. Here is the situation: OCD is ruining my relationship with my family. Along with my porn addiction, I can't see innocent interactions without malice or wondering if it's appropriate. My mom and sister always had this game of slapping each other's butts, and I always found it funny, but these days I have been feeling uncomfortable about it and asked them to stop. My OCD is trying to convince me that my mom has said me, because one time she said that if she were a boy, she would date me and one time she just blurted out "marry me" I told her I hated that, she apologized and said she didn't mean it and never did it again. A lot of the things she said these days I wonder if they're appropriate, like commenting on my body, it was things like "Your butt is smaller", because I lost a lot of weight. And these days she was talking to my sister and she said that her breasts are growing and my sister was like "I know😝😝" and she poked the side of her breasts and they just laughed. I asked them about it and my sister says that she sees no problem at all. I remember that when I started puberty, my mom would ask to touch my breasts, she never actually touched, but she was afraid cuz when she was in puberty she said her breasts hurt a lot, and she was always like "You are growing so much, they are cute." And I would get sad cuz mine's weren't big as hers. I am spiraling and my mom is the most sweet person in the world, she supports me in EVERYTHING and has always taught me to set boundaries and stand up for myself, she always respected my boundaries and talked to me about delicate things and I always felt comfortable to walk around naked or ask her ANYTHING. But remembering these things are making me question her behavior, when I know she did not mean harm and I notice that 89% of every mom I met, are like her, she is probably like that because that's how she was created, and Honestly, if she did not mean any harm then everything is fine. As I said I didn't felt uncomfortable, but OCD is like "You should feel uncomfortable because that is inappropriate behavior." It's just that I didn't care for those things I even once asked to touch my mother's breasts when I was younger cuz hers were so different and I was like "What?!?!? why are we different?" and she was like "ok" and I stopped to think that I literally used to breastfeed on them and I was " 😮😮" like, I feel bad nowdays but I was curious, and my mom just said "It's okay, but If you did it out of malice then it would be wrong and I would be uncomfy." Now OCD is making me not want to be near my mom when she literally respects my boundaries, I said I didn't want her to do these things again and she agreed without even a second thought.
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I’ve always had OCD, and for most of my life it was little things that seemed manageable at the time or something that would phase out of my head within a couple days/weeks/months. But, the older I got the more severe it became, I’d find myself collapsing deeper and deeper within my own head trying to out think the thoughts that bothered me. About a year ago I had a thought that rattled me to my core. My brothers and I were watching a movie in our mother’s room when my youngest brother turned to me to say something. His close proximity to me triggered a fleeting sexually explicit image in my head and that thought caused me to spiral. Asking questions like, “are you attracted to your minor brother? Are you attracted to minors? Are you gay? Etc.” a couple days went by and my mental stability continued to crumble until I broke down to my mother, she was understanding and we found a a psychiatrist. I got on medication and for a while everything was slowly but surely trending in a positive direction. The thoughts would still pop into my head but they were becoming more manageable. As we all know OCD and mental illness comes in waves. Currently my OCD has been pretty severe. I feel those intrusive thoughts latching on in my head and it’s been very hard to kick them. It’s gotten to the point where I find myself being uncomfortable being in close proximity with my little brother because I feel as though I am capable of harming him in any way. And the more uncomfortable I become being around him the more I find myself lashing out in anger towards the people I care about the most. Those moments of anger cause me to spiral even farther as my head fills with ideas like “what if you are capable of hurting someone or even murdering them?” There’s times where these thoughts rattle me so much that I feel like it would be better to be in prison where I couldn’t harm someone or that even being dead would be a better solution than possibly running the risk of hurting someone in my life I care about. This is about the jist of it, a majority of the OCD I have is centered around the idea that I am capable of harming my little brother physically, mentally, sexually. It’s been exhausting and it feels like there is no end in sight.
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