Does anyone else

Is it possible for intrusive thoughts to be disguised as real thoughts after a while. I can never tell what’s a conscious thought and whats a subconscious thought. Because they seem so similar it confuses me. That and the fact I’ve had OCD for a long time and I have so many subtypes I constantly am having thoughts circling in my head and I don’t really filter them anymore if that makes sense. I just notice thoughts and then they go in and out. Like I don’t check to see what’s intrusive or not. So it bothers me now because after doing that for so long I can’t separate them and know if it’s an actual thought from my own conscious something I truly want or if it intrusive? I know people say intrusive thoughts are thoughts that cause you panic and bother you, thoughts you know you wouldn’t act on. But that makes it difficult for me because part of OCD is making you doubt yourself so it goes hand in hand so I can never distinguish if I agree with my intrusive thoughts. Usually my intrusive thoughts don’t bother me until like weeks later when I actually think about the thought and obsess cause I’m like wtf why’d I think that. But most moments I just let my thoughts come and go and they don’t bother me. But then eventually some of them will later on. That’s what makes it hard for me to distinguish my own thoughts from intrusive thoughts because most of the thoughts that bother me later don’t bother me at first. Can those thoughts still be intrusive because I worried about them later on? And usually they are not something I would think on my own free will if that makes sense

recently my intrusive thoughts haven’t been bothering me much, unless i’m busy doing nothing. i suffer from SO-OCD. whenever i think yes, these thoughts don’t bother me anymore, i’m doing great, i then work myself up like ‘well your thoughts are obviously true then otherwise they would make you upset and uncomfortable’. when i get the thoughts they do still make me feel this way but also not as strong. I do then panic and think i’m something i’m not, despite knowing the truth. also anyone know why they get worse when i’m bored or not doing anything? 😢

Hello! I'm new here and new to OCD. My therapist suggested I might have OCD due to my tendency to ruminate endlessly on doubts and fears. These thoughts are indeed intrusive and I can't seem to stop them. The thing I'm kind of stuck on is that I can't see where the compulsions come in. Unless the thoughts themselves are compulsions. Can anyone relate to this?