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@Dreamer2343 Oh my god so that’s what’s happening to me…I’m obsessed with character ai bots and I thought there was something wrong with me like there was actual trauma

@Spirit130 No, not at all. I also spend a lot of my time with character ai.

@Spirit130 There’s nothing wrong with you 💜

@Jay222 There’s actually a simple answer as to why it happens. OCD attaches to our worst fears. This is just what scares you most. 💜

@Jay222 I know it does, but then when it fades, at least for me, I realize how ridiculous it was. Understand, sexuality will be, to a degree, flexible. Anyone can convince themselves of anything if they try hard enough. But, let’s look at it this way, because someone thinks about killing someone, it doesn’t make them a murderer. Remember, OCD can make you feel, think, and even convince you that you’ve already done something wrong or will do something wrong. Whenever I’m deep in a spiral, it literally feels like I’m not myself at all. I still feel guilt, I still feel shame, and I still hate the thoughts, but what keeps me grounded is knowing that I don’t wish to harm anyone. Intrusive thoughts are labeled intrusive because they’re “unwanted,” a real pedophile doesn’t try to wish the thoughts away, they don’t question their sexuality, and they certainly don’t feel shame or guilt over them. Some are non offending, but their fantasies and wants still mainly revolve around pre-pubescent children, whereas, for you, the thoughts come but you don’t want them. You question if that’s what you like. You get freaked out over it and sometimes disgusted with yourself. Pedophiles don’t do this.

@Jay222 On top of that, let’s all remember that people without OCD still get these intrusive thoughts, but they’re able to let them pass and they just don’t talk about them.

@Jay222 Also, if you’re artistically inclined or a musical person in any way, shape, or form or if you have very vivid images in your head, this is just a symptom of OCD and they mean absolutely nothing. A thought is just a thought unless you assign meaning to it.

@Jay222 No, sorry, I should clarify. What I mean is, because you’re scared, the anxiety in OCD will want you to assign meaning to the thought, but honestly, thoughts ANY thought at all by themselves does not mean anything. It’s just OCD wants us to think it does.

@Jay222 Yes. No problem. I love helping because I know how bad going through POCD is and how I wished someone could’ve given me all the answers when I had questions.

@Jay222 At times. I get a lot of really random anxiety-ridden thoughts stuck in my head.