I am so scared

@Nicolas:) I really can accept being bi but i can’t except being lesbian but it feels like i was always seeking just attention & validation from men I google everything and i found that all my experiences with men were just the case of a lesbian misunderstood her attraction to men with seeking attention from them Yes i have personality disorder, i have a low self esteem, i grow up without a father and yes i like getting a lot of attention & validation from partners but thid doesnt mean im not lesbian I really cant live in this life anymore 💔

@star1232 To be honest I was fine with being bi before, but then I stop obssesing about being gay and I started obssesing about being bi

@star1232 Well I mean, why would you looked for the atention of people you are not atracted to? Like I never wanted male atention, maybe some validation from those who I though were cool, more like their aproval, but not their atention

@Nicolas:) Yes me too Now im totally convinced im lesbian

@Nicolas:) Because my case is if i met a guy i thought i had crush on & after knowing that he doesn’t suits me , i still want his validation and attention 💔

@star1232 Yeah well, almost all the girls I know are like that, and they are straight, the only lesbian I know doesnt really give a shit about what men think about her

@star1232 Lemme guess, lesbian master doc?

@Anonymous - What's a lesbian master doc?

@Nicolas:) No i have never read it I am so scared of reading it too

@Anonymous Because when for example thinking about any of ( who i thought) a crush i really just think about how much they love and perceive me and i feel happy , in other words i think just about their love towards me 😞

@star1232 And that’s a bad thing because…?

@Anonymous I just accept being bi ( i dont want to & i dont want to be with a woman tho ) but i just realized that i always did this with men 💔 simply im just totally a lesbian

@star1232 If lesbian is a label that resonates with you then by all means.

@Anonymous ???

@star1232 You are the only one who gets to define yourself and your experiences. If you interpret them as you never being interested in men and feel like you are a lesbian, then that’s valid. However, if you don’t feel like that captures your experiences, then you don’t have to identify as lesbian. Remember that attraction is not objective and is up to our own interpretation.

@Anonymous In my childhood i felt in love with a boy without caring if he loves me or not

@star1232 I remember the moment where i felt that attraction/ love feeling towards him

@Anonymous How do i know if i was interested/ into men ? I have so much things i like about men

@star1232 No one can really dictate what attraction should feel like to you. If you think that’s an important moment in understanding your sexuality, then no one can go “well, actually…” It’s your life. Your experiences. Maybe what you felt was love. Maybe it wasn’t. No one but you can really say.

@star1232 Again this feels like reassurance (which I do a lot too)

@Anonymous No i cant Seems like you dont understand how an ocd sufferer cant know what is true or wrong

@star1232 I’m an ocd sufferer myself. And my therapist’s response to all these types of questions is “maybe, maybe not.” You ask how you know your attractions are real and there’s not really a definitive answer. You won’t know with 100% certainty.

@star1232 Not enough for who? Who are you trying to prove your desires to?

@Anonymous I know ..

@Justmesadly I mean you too like male validation & attention!

@star1232 Everyone does

@Justmesadly I know everyone does But my case is different because if i met a guy i thought i had crush on & after knowing that he doesn’t suits me , i still want his validation and attention 💔

@star1232 I promise someone else has had this experience

@Justmesadly The very slight hope i have is that in my childhood i got attracted & in love with a boy It was a very natural feeling, he was handsome and wealthy but i swear i didnt get attracted to him because of that, it was a natural attraction feeling and I didn’t care if he reciprocates my feelings or not , BUT after maybe 2 years i wanted him to love me back and did things to notice me 🤦‍♀️ Also whenever i am in a relationship with a man I always seek attention & validation so much 💔😞