False memory. Need advice

Hello everyone, I'm new here 💗 I have been really struggling these past few weeks with a memory of harming someone. This is all I'm thinking about and its making me feel physically sick with worry. I think I have instant false memories? Where I have an intrusive thought and immediately think it's happened. If I dont check my surroundings and immediately engage with compulsions (checking no one was harmed) then I know I'll be haunted with a false memory a few hours or even minutes later. Is anyone else familiar with this? It's destroying me.

Loafy

Date posted: 1y

I’ve been struggling with false memory for about 2 months. I was watching a movie where someone was burying a body and I thought, “What if I killed someone and repressed it?” Because I used to have dreams that I buried a body and would keep returning to it. But these past two months I’ve been pulverizing every memory, every action, every bad thing I’ve ever done, every dream, and now everything is fuzzy. My husband says he remembers me telling him about the dreams, but now even typing it doesn’t feel familiar. It’s not fun. And it’s hard to accept uncertainty when you think you’re a bad person who could’ve harmed someone. But I’ve been just trying to avoid compulsions and live my life.

amylou

Date posted: 1y

It's really horrible isn't it? That sounds very stressful. I've struggled with multiple ocd themes but I find false memory the hardest to cope with. Even referring to it as a false memory makes me feel like I'm lying to myself because it all feels so real. Thank you for your reply. Sending you love and strength 💗

Loafy

Date posted: 1y

@amylou I’ve always had health concerns and like random irrational fears of death, dying, mass shootings etc. But this is a new one. Super stressful to deal with. Makes me feel like I’m crazy and can’t trust myself.

Jlyman

Date posted: 38w

I wish you the best, but I am not sure if I have OCD I know I have ADD !

strike1207

Date posted: 18w

Can someone please help. I’m struggling.

I have had the same false memory/instrusive image of me doing something horrible to someone when I was 12 and they were younger. It is a memory based on a real event. I truly don’t know if it’s real or not but obviously, the more I think about it the more I think it’s true. This has led my mind to become slightly paranoid. I worry that if this horrible image in my head is true then one day the person I might have hurt will come and k*ll me. I’m really scared I feel like I won’t feel better as long as this “memory” is in my head. Does anyone have advice?

4747get

Date posted: 15w

Hello. I’m new here.

I experience crippling, debilitating false memory OCD. It started with a “what if” thought 6 days ago and has spiraled into a never ending loop. My mind is telling me that “maybe you did this terrible, awful, unforgivable thing years ago and you don’t remember it and it’s only a matter of time before it catches up to you and your life is over” I’m really needing some coping mechanisms and support. I’m really scared and my body is exhausted. I just want it to stop. It is full panic attack all day, every day. Please if anyone can relate or help me.

False Memory OCD

Ih8ocd!

Date posted: 7w

Intrusive thoughts POCD

Hi all, I have false memory ocd, harm ocd and pure ocd, I also suffer really badly from intrusive thoughts every single day. I was minding my nephew last weekend and I got an intrusive thought that I’m ashamed off, I’m now worried that I acted on that intrusive thought and just can’t remember, there’s also a false memory image in my head of me acting on the thought which I’m scared is actually a memory even though deep down I know I didn’t act on it. I’m worried though that the fact I even had this thought in the first place means I’m inherently a bad person who would act on these thoughts. My stomach is sick with the worry I may have acted on it and can’t Remember, anyone else ever have something like this? I start meds and therapy next week so hoping that helps

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