Religious ocd

I will pray for u! OCD tries to convince us of the opposite of what we want, it is 'egj dystonic.' So the fact you value your religion means that OCD has latched on to it and is doing everything possible to convince you that you're offending God, that your sinning, etc. this is such a difficult place to be in!! I really recommend looking up this theme of OCD on YouTube, e.g watch MarcdeJesus. Their videos really help!! And sometimes I say to myself when J think I'm sinning/get an intrusive thought 'I don't talk to OCD, I trust God knows that I do not wish to sin.' Nowadays I just say one prayer at the beginning of the day ( e.g I don't wish to sin) and then think 'I don't talk to OCD, I trust God heard my first prayer' and then everything is okay :) feel free to message me if you need help;

I’m praying for you Praying for you to have peace For you to have calm in your heart For you to have calm in your mind For you to have calm in your soul The Holy Spirit isn’t in the punishment business by the way…if anything sometimes it redirects us. Forgive yourself because that what your Creator has already done.

So sorry you are going through this! I can relate. One thing I like to point out is that there is 1 verse in the Bible about the sin you are referencing....literally 1. But this fear that you are struggling with is likely common to 50%+ of Christians with OCD. And why? Because OCD loves to catastrophize....meaning it likes to find the absolute worst case scenario and then dwell on it to the point that our emotions are living as if that worst case scenario is the truth. This is why you say "life hurts," b/c you are living in an emotional state of something so horrible happening, which is not true at all. So I hope this helps. Also, the sin you are referring to is a sign of a heart sooooo hardened towards God that nothing will make it want to repent. In the example the Bible gives, Christ did literal miracles right in front of the pharisees and they refused to acknowledge it was the power of the Holy Spirit that did it. The bottom line is if you have a concern you have done this sin, then you haven't. Those who commit it have no remorse....so rest knowing that you have not done that! If I haven't responded to you already, I recommend looking up Jaimie Eckert and Mark DeJesus on Youtube. They really get the struggles Chrstians with OCD have. Also, I wrote a book called Waging War Against OCD - A Christian Approach to Victory. I don't go into this topic in detail, but I think you might like some of the chapters - especially the one on grace. Once I understood the grace of God, I found alot of freedom. I see grace as OCD's kryptonite.....it can't thrive once we understand His grace...even once we grasp it a little bit, OCD starts to lose its power. I hope this helps!!

Here is an excellent article! https://scrupulosity.com/unpardonable-sin/