Camille67
- Date posted
- 50w
Have you ever
Tried to say "ok im just gonna accept that i'm gay" and you felt calm, like It was true and then It freaked you out wven more cause It felt real???
pureolifepureolife
- Date posted
- 50w
Yup! Used to do that one a lot. That’s a testing compulsion. It’s not going to make anything clearer. It’s just going to confuse you more and send you down a compulsion spiral of rumination and mental checking and further testing.
Camille67Camille67
- Date posted
- 50w
I'm so tired mentally, I can't stop thinking about It and when I try to distract myself I feel like something Is wrong cause i'm not thinking about It and i'm not solving It... My therapist says I have GAD with some ocd tendencies cause I don't have compulsions, my compulsions are only mental and so it's not ocd completely for her. Where I live pure-o is not considered ocd😔 so It makes me think that I'm actually gay cause my therapist says it's not completely ocd
pureolifepureolife
- Date posted
- 50w
@Marharet Mental compulsions are compulsions. It’s the same as ocd with physical compulsions. Your therapist is obviously not a specialist in it. You need to be doing ERP and if your therapist doesn’t know how to do that with you, you should try finding an online course or workbook. There are many therapists who provide online courses or even teletherapy who will understand “pure o” and know how to help you. I had this happen with a therapist too before I found a specialist. As soon as I saw the specialist she assured me it’s all ocd and what I was experiencing was perfectly normal for that diagnosis.
Camille67Camille67
- Date posted
- 50w
@pureolife Unfortunately in Italy it's not common to treat ocd unless it's with physical compulsions, I Changed so many therapists😔 mental health here Is veeeeery behind compared to other countries, it's still a taboo too!
pureolifepureolife
- Date posted
- 50w
@Marharet Try “OCD and Anxiety Online” or “CBT School” — both available online and taught by ocd specialists
Iwanttobreakfree🦋Iwanttobreak...
- Date posted
- 50w
@Marharet Ciao, sono italiana anch'io! Anch'io ho avuto molta difficoltà a trovare degli psicologi specializzati per il doc, ti capisco :'). Al momento io ho trovato uno psicologo a Torino, Centro Galileo Ferraris se vuoi guardare (l'ho trovato grazie alla fondazione internazionale del doc, IOCDF). Puoi fare terapia online anche da altre parti d'Italia! Altrimenti dovrebbero esserci dei centri specializzati a Firenze e se non sbaglio a Roma
Camille67Camille67
- Date posted
- 50w
@g🦋 Grazie mille!! Io sono di napoli, ma cercherò di trovare qualcosa online allora❤️❤️
Iwanttobreakfree🦋Iwanttobreak...
- Date posted
- 50w
@Marharet Figurati!💕
ClaauClaau
- Date posted
- 20d
@Iwanttobreakfree🦋 Ciao! Posso chiederti come ti stai trovando al centro a Torino?
asiafasiaf
- Date posted
- 50w
Oh yeah, manyyy times and it did not lead me anywhere because guess what? It’s a compulsion! It feeds OCD like it’s your personal pet. I suggest to you to look at this from the POV of a theme you don’t have and could hardly bother you. When I was struggling with SOCD like you, I started reading about people with POCD, and thought “wow, they even feel sensations even though they are not genuine”. OCD is able to make you feel calm when you state the opposite of what you want to do, it’s your mind, it can literally do anything. And no, that is not the answer to your question. I hope this helped! Wish you all the very best and if you need any advice on SOCD, feel free to ask!
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- Date posted
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