- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
I hate my ocd.
Sometimes i really hate my ocd. I am a positive person, i search for the good in everything. But sometimes i get so mad and frustrated that I am forced to think about things that do not pertain to my life or values on a daily basis. It’s the endless loop of what if and the feeling of doubt that follows behind you all day long. I know it’s time for me to switch medications as my current regimen has only been operating to about 50-60% when I am used to 95-100%. I feel like sharing frustrations and making space for these emotions is healthy. Share with me what you hate most about your ocd? And oh yeah, i hate how ocd is such a tricky mental illness to the point that you basically sit back and watch your brain malfunction and produce thoughts sensations and feelings you know aren’t true. I swear half the time I feel like I have six brains running at the same time. Like I’m impressed sometimes at the fact that i can have ocd thoughts on loop all day, while trying to drive, do homework, be present with family, hold a job, sleep, exc. it’s like my brain creates a totally seperate story of what’s going on vs the present moment. I’m going to need my Serotonin to boost now. This girl needs a break 🤣