Fears

I'm so afraid that I've harmed my best friend because I'm 2 years older and I turned 18 before him. We met online when we were in middle school and we're strictly platonic, no romantic feelings there, we've helped each other get through so much together and I'm just so afraid that while I was 18/19 I managed to fuck everything up because I was legally an adult before him even though I was still just a stupid teenager. I've asked him several times if I've ever hurt him and he's said no but the thought persists.

Username: pjthebosspjtheboss

Date posted: 20w ago

When I turned 18, my whole pocd and worrying became so heightened because I was legally an adult now, and finding anyone attractive that was younger than me or being friends with anyone younger than me was like the end of the world. I don’t think you harmed him or did anything to him because you are still close in age. Remind yourself that reality is different than your internal reality. Not everything is as severe as we make it out to be!

Username: needtoescapetheV0IDneedtoescape...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 20w ago

I don't specifically have POCD, but I do have a subtype about whether I've emotionally harmed anyone I love (and I also sometimes have taboo instrusive thoughts; if that's relevant), so I still get what you're going through. I'm sorry you're going through this; I know that any kind of intrusive thoughts about relationships SUCK. I constantly worry about messing up social situations and I worry that I (emotionally) hurt other people. What our sitations have in common is that we ask for reassurance to make sure that we haven't harmed the people we care about, and it doesn't help us. You should try to stop asking your friend for reassurance. It will be hard, but it will help in the long run. I know you can do it. YOU know you would never hurt your best friend. If OCD doesn't know that, that's okay, and you don't have to try to convince it. OCD doesn't get a say in your life anyways.

Username: Chelzy A

Date posted: 1y ago

POCD

So back then when I was 18 I went to Mexico the month after my birthday and I met this dude there who was 14 but turned 15 that same month and we had a thing for a eachother and he did look older and was much taller than me and seemed mature. But now I’m so worried why did I like him or talk to him that way back then. I am now 20 and he’s 17 and I haven’t talked to him at all because I’m in a loving healthy relationship with my bf who is 27. I have a fear of being a pedo and I’m so scared that what happened back then makes me a pedo :((

POCD

Username: ocdnoononi

Date posted: 40w ago

Fear my friends are lying..

I make friends online and I like to make sure they are above 18- mostly cause the art I create is mature and I generally don’t like minors and don’t want to be near them. Lately my severe OCD has forced me to cut off all these friends cause even after they showed me ID, and birth certificates that it still was too much of a risk. I kept thinking it was never worth the risk. Well I kept one friend and I’m still terrified that they are lying. Sometimes I talk to them and I just feel sick then I feel guilty. They asked me to please not let them go too and now I feel like an awful person. I just look at their texts and I feel like “what if?” Or “what if I’ve always known they were a minor?” Or “I used to be comfortable talking to them- they could’ve been a minor!” And it drags me down so far I just really REALLY want to cut them off. I feel so miserable.

POCD

Username: Stormyskies

Date posted: 32w ago

Friendship with a slight age gap

My POCD randomly triggered over a friendship I have with someone who is eighteen. I’m sixteen and I have no intention of dating them however we do make jokes and are very affectionate. Nothing bad, normal internet friendships but it’s making me nervous that I’m somehow a victim or something even though I have no issues with it. Is this okay?

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