I’ve just had the freakiest moment. My ocd is related to losing myself and last night I was just let in bed and instantly felt like a different person. It’s like someone just went and rewired my brain right there. Since that moment, I haven’t slept all night. It’s like my subconscious doesn’t want me to. Like I’ve tried and pushed the moment out my mind, but my alarm just went for college and I can’t believe I’ve basically been awake all night bc I’m hanging. Idk what to do, I’m so scared. I feel like this is real. I’ve had depersonalization and it doesn’t feel like that - it feels like someone actually just went into me. Anyone had this??

I have definitely experienced this as well. It was a weird experience. It’s just your brain trying to protect itself. OCD is massive stress so you’re brain sometimes just automatically goes to depersonalization or derealization. It’s part of anxiety. Trust me, I have felt like I was losing my mind from this but then found out it’s common for anxiety. Just be easy on yourself. Do a lot of self care. Don’t judge yourself or think you’re crazy. Just try and relax. Camomile tea is a life saver as well as lavender essential oil.

@hannie I’m also seeing this thing where every time I shut my eyes now I see a face. I have no idea who the person is but feel like it’s me for some reason?? This feels real for some reason. It’s like I’ve had a massive personality change in under 0.5 seconds

Derealization or depersonalization happens so randomly. You don’t always have to be be in an anxious moment. It’s just when ever your brain decides it’s time to protect itself. It does feel very real and scary. I think you’re hypersensitive which is yet another form of anxiety. Really try and do relaxing things and see if you can get your stress level down to see if that kind of helps with you symptoms. OCD is a really tricky thing. It can convince you of literally anything. Just take it easy. This will pass?

Depersonalization/derealizarion is terrifying but apparently very common and normal. One tip I found helpful is grounding yourself in the moment. Look around the room and actually focus on the space, the smells, the sounds, how are you positioned in the space? It’s surprising how much this helps

Thanks for the advice, I really appreciate it :)