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hey , just take some deep breaths , sounds like your mind is racing . i’m going through the same thing rn , my minds racing and i can’t sleep , you got this !!

I’m going through the same, it’s gonna be okay

I know it seems so shitty and just feels like a mess but you are so brave. Currently dealing with the same, and I let my brain spiral! Just know that tomorrow is a new day and even if it’s the shittiest day of your life, give yourself a hug at the end because you got through it. I’m proud of you ❤️

it’s easy for the mind to trick you. i know that’s so hard to believe, why would my mind make me feel these things about myself. why would my mind lead me into this labyrinth where i’m a villian so this must be real, the thoughts must be real and i’m a bad guy. but actually, no, the mind, our minds are really that complex. who understands half of the shit the mind does, the brain is still being studied. p**** having anxiety and disgust about who they ARE is different than you having disgust and anxiety at a thought or a compulsion. you even having the morality and consciousness to be disgusted and to know that is not what you stand for. you don’t stand for inappropriate and vile things being done to children and you would never do them. ocd tries to present you with your core values twisted and distorted. ex. you - likes being clean, values cleanliness ocd - you shouldn’t be so nasty, you don’t clean up behind yourself you - cares for children and is hyper-vigilant ocd - you just like watching them, you’re a pervert. i know it’s easier said than done and it took me years to put myself and my character above the ocd, we are two different stories and what it is saying has nothing to do with me. i know what i am consciously thinking and i know what ocd is presenting to me. i know this is easier said than done and it doesn’t always work but i guess it all comes down to having conviction in your character and trusting yourself. no matter what the thoughts say, i am not that, i do not stand for that, i am attracted to men, i’ve liked men my entire life, etc etc