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Handwashing OCD
Has anyone else struggled with handwashing in their OCD? I’m interested in hearing other stories about different experiences with it
Has anyone else struggled with handwashing in their OCD? I’m interested in hearing other stories about different experiences with it
Yes, it’s one of my main struggles. I have went through different phases. At one point I washed so much my hands were always cracked and bleeding. Im now down to washing 2 times in a row instead of however many times I did in the past, no more cracked & bleeding hands for the most part but I still spend way too long on those 2 times.
@Anonymousoverthinker1 Thank you for sharing ❤️
Yeah, I still cannot interact w must surfaces. I honestly wanted to tackle my contamination fears as soon as possible but I developed really bad hand eczema and rashes and didn’t want to risk damaging the skin further by exposing myself too much. I’m quite embarrassed by the state of my room and the dirty places I’ve left untouched bc of my hand washing/contamination problem. 😭😅Maybe this is my calling to start! I can say, one positive outcome is my hands have FINALLY healed after two years. So if your hands are suffering from your OCD, I can tell you it does heal!!!! Just lots of hand creams and invest in a good, sensitive soap. ☺️
@Chibee Thank you for sharing ❤️
my hands are always so dry and I find it hard when washing them because I don’t want to touch the taps when they are clean too so after I’ve touched the taps I use hand sanitiser to “be sure” they are clean, I wish I didn’t wash them as much but always feel like I need to they just don’t feel clean after touching any objects. It’s something I need to work on for sure , I do it a lot with exposure
@ambermayx Thank you for sharing❤️
Yes, I have. Though it never became severe.
@Nica how to define severe?
@bingbongsingh My hands *weren’t* bleeding and blistered from washing so much.
Yes, I still struggle but not as bad as before
I started dealing with OCD when I became fixated on health issues, particularly the fear of contracting a life-threatening disease. If I experienced any kind of medical symptom, no matter how small, that even remotely hinted at something potentially fatal, it would drive me crazy, and I couldn’t stop obsessing over it. Then one day, I started having intrusive thoughts about accidentally hitting someone with my car, and I would end up driving in circles to check if I had. Eventually, I found myself overwhelmed by a flood of new obsessive thoughts and compulsions. One day, while I was at the park, a squirrel came near me, and for some reason, I felt like it attacked me. I Googled it and learned that squirrels could carry rabies, which spiraled me into a deep fear of rabies. I became consumed with the thought I received a bite from a squirrel, raccoon, or bat any time I’m in areas that trigger me. It started off only being inside then transferred to even being in my own home. This made me obsess over every physical sensation in my body, compulsively checking to make sure nothing was wrong. One compulsion that I hated the most would to be putting rubbing alcohol on me to make sure that I had no open wounds. Every day feels like I’m walking around in a fog of anxiety, constantly worrying that I won’t even make it to old age. Sometimes, it gets so overwhelming that I just want it all to end. It stresses me so bad at times to where my brain feels like I’ve been studying all day.
Hi, I’m new to this app and newly diagnosed. Question for you all, What things did you normalize and do without a second thought that when diagnosed, you realized was actually your OCD? Mine was how concerned with germs I am. I hold my breath when I open a door so the rush of wind doesn’t infect my lungs from whatever is in the room. I thought everyone was really careful and concerned like me. But Ive learned it’s not normal the lengths I go to. What was yours?
Last year during April I started to experience groinal responses when I looked at kids. I was terrified of what it could mean and decided to attempt two weeks later. The very next day I had those responses I decided to attempt. I didn’t really have the courage to do so at that time but I started experiencing images about disturbing things done to kids and as days went by it got worse. April 16 was the last straw and I couldn’t take it anymore. I ended up in a mental hospital but before I ended up there I had searched up what I was experiencing. That’s when I started to understand that it was OCD. I felt relieved for a few moments until I felt the urge to get more information. I saw lots and lots of things and many comments saying that it wasn’t normal and that people who went through this were disgusting people who shouldn’t be allowed to roam free. That’s when my anxiety and fear became worse and I tried to get rid of it but nothing worked. I shook the entire time I was awake, I didn’t have motivation for anything anymore, I just felt so disgusting. In the end, I’m so glad I ended up in that mental hospital or else I wouldn’t be here with my friends and family. Thank you for reading my story, I’m so glad that I’m not alone
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