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I've been going through the same thing. Something my therapist told me is that our brain prefers to accept things because it's easier than to fight against them, even if those things are unwanted. I developed OCD because of my old porn addiction, I saw a lot of TRULY disgusting things that now make my stomach curl, but the important thing is to understand that these things were harmful and really bad. But if you didn't do anything, then understand that OCD doesn't only affect the mind, but the body too, acceptance can be painful, but it's also a way for the brain to save itself from difficulties.

Pedophiles don't question themselves, they know. Just like we know since birth that we can see, do we question why we can see? No. Pedophiles LIKE your thoughts and urges, but if you question yourself then you don't like it.