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I feel really bad right now.And really scared.I am scared I am a horrible person.Like I wnjoy horrible things.I am scared is getting really bad again
I feel really bad right now.And really scared.I am scared I am a horrible person.Like I wnjoy horrible things.I am scared is getting really bad again
I have been the same the past few days. When I'm trying to just accept things it's gotta ramp it up to get my attention. I feel like im a little ball just swirling around absolutely confused at what is real and what is not. Ocd sucks đ ur not alone
this may be easier said than done, but i'd say try to find self-soothing methods, or ways of comforting yourself that don't involve compulsing in any way. accept that you might still feel scared; don't try to directly change your emotions, but allow yourself not to feed the fear. Remember, feeling guilty or shameful does not mean you are a terrible person. To judge your character based on an uncomfortable feeling is emotional reasoning, which is not a helpful way of thinking. Im not a professional of any kind, but I hope this helps. Good luck!
I feel like a horrible person who doesnât deserve to live. So even when I start feeling better I feel like I donât deserve that. I just feel like a bad person who doesnât care about anyone
I am so scared of everything .Of my thoughts.If I am a good person.Years ago I didnt help a kid who was in danger.Since then I started to have terrible thoughts :( i am so terrified.I still have these thoughts and I am scared it means something about me .I really dont want to hurt anyone and I want to help that kid now but idk how I can now.Also I am scared I betray everyone.I still have terrible thoughts and when I am with someone I care is worse...idk why.For example I started to talk with a collegue and he is really nice to me.I told him some things abt me( not the intrusive thoughts) and he was supportive.I have no idea if I will tell anyone abt my thoughts..and bcs of that I feel like I lie to them and betray them.I really want to enjoy my life and be happy and support people( especially because I didnt help that kid then).I want to live up to my morals now but I feel like I lie and manipulate people bcs I am a monster.Is this normal? To feel this way? What can I do? What if I am my worst fear and just cant accept it?!
I can't even look at myself in the mirror. I've spent the morning crying, and I feel like I don't deserve to. I feel like I'm a horrible person or a... you know. I'm so sick of this. I'm just so tired of everything. I don't see my psychiatrist until two weeks from now. How am I going to make it till then? :( Even writing this post, I feel like I'm deceiving everyone and that I'm actually a monster. I'm so convinced of this right now. I don't know what to do. I was literally okay a few days ago. I don't even know what's real and what's not, like... I think I do? But everything is so distorted. I can't stop replaying memories trying to figure things out. I really need my psychiatrist right now. I feel like I need to confess, like I've been trying so hard not to, but every person I see, I just keep thinking about how badly I want to ask them if I'm a bad person or not, and that makes me feel worse. A good person wouldn't feel the need to ask that over and over again, would they? What if I'm just seeking validation because I can't accept that?
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