ocd about ocd?

hi!! tw and 18+ for sexual content very scared to be writing this because i’ve never posted, but i went to a therapist (through my school) a few months ago. he seemed nice, but then during the first session made comments/asked questions about my private parts and sexual topics that i really didn’t think were warranted. my friends told me not to go back but i did because i was convinced that i was just telling myself it was worse than it was, or that the comments actually made perfect sense and i was somehow misinterpreting. during the second session he didn’t do any of that, but told me that i didn’t have ocd but “neurological issues associated with childhood seasonal allergies”. i stopped sessions immediately after, and know that this was just a bad experience- but i still can’t stop thinking about it and thinking he was right about everything, and that my intrusive thoughts aren’t intrusive thoughts at all, truly making me a bad person. even though it’s been months i feel like im spiraling. has anybody else had a similar experience? if so, how did you manage it?

Brooke cookie

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 49w

It is sad that a lot of professionals do not know much about OCD I did not get diagnosed until about 10 years later after I started having symptoms . I’ve had mental health professionals Tell me I don’t have a OCD even though most of them do tell me I do have ocd. There are some that don’t know what they’re talking about so it is normal to get misdiagnosed by someone that does not understand OCD, which is frustrating because one and 40 people have it, so why do they not know what that is? Sadly people with purely mental compulsions get misdiagnosed all the time it’s starting to get better and more known in the mental health community but there’s still a lot of people who don’t know about it or too ignorant to go research it which is a shame because that’s a big part of the people who would be coming to them so I don’t know why they don’t figure it out. I personally had a therapist one time that I would say was really weird and not a good way at all kind and kinda creepy and it kinda of sounds like you had a similar experience. I’m sorry some people just are not right and you should just see another therapist.

misereri

Date posted: 24w

Meeting with the local counselor -- it's worse.

As some of you might very seen from my (spam) posts about my situation I'm not diagnosed with ocd but I'm seeing a local counselor. I'm terribly scared of being secretly in love with someone else or being attracted to someone else outside my relationship, in this case S (if you want a more detailed version u can see my other posts). Long story short: The psychologist confirmed my fear and told me not to think about the thoughts until the next appointment and live in the present ( if it was that simple I would've done it already). Safe to say it sent me and still sending me into a big spiral where I had this big panick attack because I feel the world shattered and my fear is true and then I was just faking everything and not accepting it and it's making me fee so bad as I type this. I had a big panick attack while going back home and had to sit on the sidewalk because I couldnt breathe and was about to throw up. I don't know what to do and if someone has advice I'd be glad to listen.

SunnyAnon

Date posted: 22w

dealing with OCD flashbacks 18+

i currently am getting over my period and have been having a horrible flashbacks from some real events. it’s a amalgamation of all of the horrible things i did as a child/young teenager. all of it associated with p0rnography + sexual activities i did. i was exposed to sexual activity very young and it lead me down a dark path. i’ve had OCD forever it seems. it’s hard because i can see that i’ve had OCD symptoms since childhood but i constantly doubt wether or not my actions where because of OCD or something i genuinely wanted/was attracted to. i can’t seem to differentiate the two and it’s scaring me. i’m worried i was genuinely into the kind of stuff and it’s constantly flashing in my mind the last two days of things i compulsively did years ago. to be absolutely clear it has been years since i’ve even thought about those taboo things or saw anything of that sort. i’m talking 5 or 6 years give or take. it still feels like yesterday. in recent years i’ve completely pulled away from p0rn and now find it and s3x a lot less appealing. but every so often i get these intense flashbacks on things i did or saw or thought and it puts everything on hold. everything im interested in gets but on the back burner in fear of my intrusive thoughts being thrown into the mix. currently experiencing that now. im mortified of ruining everything i love because of these stupid thoughts. does anyone have any advice or experience with this specifically and have any tips???

Lena1998

Date posted: 21w

Harm OCD made worse by psychiatrist visit

I went to talk to a psychiatrist based off my Nocd therapists recommendation. I had a very hard week beforehand where I had anxiety so bad I couldn't leave my bed. It seems like once I get my period my anxiety and everything dissipated some so I talked to the psychiatrist. Anyways, I was immediately put off by her because she told me she didn't have any information on me included in the referral for one reason or another. So I had to basically "fill her in" on my life story. I have anxiety disorder, panic disorder, OCD and PTSD. I told her these things and how hard the last week had been. She started asking questions like I had bipolar disorder, which I don't have. She then wanted me to take buspar and Zoloft TOGETHER daily. I know for a fact you never start two medications daily at once. You don't know which one is causing symptoms if you do. So I immediately didn't like that. I asked her about Zoloft specifically daily because it is an SSRI what I should do if it gave me thoughts of harm for myself. She told me "just go to the hospital".... Now, I don't wanna say that was the worst possible thing she could have said to me, but it was. Because now my OCD is spiraling that just my general harm OCD thoughts are enough to mean I need to go to the hospital. It had been 2 days and I cannot stop obsessing that maybe I'm depressed or suicidal because of this. I know I don't want anything to happen to me. I love my family and my friends. I am scared of death. But the thought is sticky and it's been so, so frustrating. My anxiety has been so frustrating. I feel so lost and like nothing I'm trying to fix my issues is working very well. NOCD therapy has been one of the only things to help in the long term, but I still get terrified of certain obsessions like suicide. I don't really know what to do, if anyone has any advice or any personal experience that may help, anything would be nice right now. I've felt so lost trying to figure it all out.

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