Could use some advice

Struggling today with my thoughts and maybe some dissociation. I can’t get any clear thoughts. I felt like lately I’ve started to recover and then the past few days have felt so hard. I feel scared for the future. I am scared I don’t have enough hope for living with ocd. I am scared that I’m not gonna be happy. I’m scared I’ll chose to end my life over this. I’m scared I’ll want to end my life. I feel weird. My thoughts are jumbled today. Something feels like it’s going to happen and that’s what is giving me anxiety.

Username: FLOWER CHILDFLOWER CHILD

Date posted: 10w ago

My therapist says this happens when we start to eradicate the ocd. We've had this disease for so long that it's hard to tell which thoughts are really ours anymore. She told me to do a list of who I am vs what's the ocd. It's helpful to separate yourself from the disease so it doesn't feel like we're losing a part of ourselves once we start getting better. Focus on your wins and progress so far. I was in the middle of a session the other day celebrating some big successes I've had recently and in the middle of sharing, I had the thought that I was never going to truly get better and I would never be happy. It totally knocked the wind right out of my sails. Its another lie from the ocd though. I've been so much happier since I began this process and I'll be damned if I let one little thought pull me back in and keep me from continuing this process. Don't lose hope. Obviously you can do hard things because you've made it this far in life while having ocd. Don't sell yourself short. And please don't stop holding your head above water as the life saver is being thrown to you. Grab ahold and don't let go.

Username: marcygirl23marcygirl23

Date posted: 10w ago

@FLOWER CHILD Thank you for this. Right now I’m just scared. I’m scared to why I’d randomly have this bad of a panic over my suicidal ocd and how I’m doing. I’m scared.

Username: TexasOCD41TexasOCD41

Date posted: 10w ago

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fPtjx2ysxa8&t=572s watch this. it should help. OCD can be a feeling of impending doom. Its not always a thought. Just remember, this is ALL OCD, its not real. Don't try to get away from it, just... allow it to float around you like an annoying wasp. if you swat at it, it might try to sting you, if you just ignore it, it will buzz, and freak you out.... but then it will leave.

Username: 0823

Date posted: 6y ago

I’ve been struggling with intrusive thoughts lately and after a lot of research, I’ve learned to just let them happen. But now, I’m scared that since I’m not having anxiety or crying over it, it must mean that I like the thoughts or that I don’t find them bad. I know that this in itself is OCD. I haven’t been diagnosed with OCD, but I have been speaking to a specialist over email to set up an appointment. I don’t feel like myself anymore, my brain is so full of questions and thoughts that I can’t even figure out what they are. It feels so foggy and I feel so lost. Does anyone else ever feel this way? I’m all alone in this and I’m just so confused.

Username: anonymousN

Date posted: 5y ago

Kind of having a hard time today . Keep getting thought about something called disassocitive identity disorder , I saw it in a tv show called bates motel awhile ago . My brain keeps telling me that I will get it . It keeps comparing to the time I kept feeling like a boy . And I’m scared that One day I will turn into a different person and all this other non sense it basically telling me I will completely lose myself and go insane or crazy . Trying not react with fear but it’s getting to me a little bit and it’s causing me serious depression while I’m at work . Keep thinking about how I problem won’t make it past 20 years old . It keeps saying that I have no hope in getting better and I will kill myself soon . I also keep getting thoughts about how I feel so alone and how I have no family or friend support I’ve told them I have ocd and sometimes they talk to me about it but most of the time they tell me that I’m being stupid or just disregard it all together . I don’t wanna put my problems on other people so I try to not take it to heart but it really makes me feel like nobody cares . And I feel like if my mental illness was to ever become even more serious than it already is nobody will help me . Not even my family . I will probably end up being neglected and die alone . I can’t take this . I’m at work and I can barley focus. I just don’t know what to do .

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 3y ago

Really thought about whether or not to post this but I’m really struggling and wondering if anyone has gone through the same thing/what helped them out of it. I have fears of psychosis/schiz/delusions and I started having intrusive thoughts that sound and feel delusional even though I know they’re not true, and I don’t actually believe them. I obsess over whether I think they’re true and if I’m actually delusional, then I start to feel really disconnected and dreamy (like derealization?) but then I get worried that I’m actually dissociating and/or losing my mind. I rly struggle w these thoughts as they make me so uncomfortable and make me feel like I am delusional. I will reread things I wrote, rethink things I have already said to make sure they’re coherent, argue w my thoughts, constantly check to make sure I know who I am, where I am, know who my family is, etc. to ensure I’m not losing my mind. My themes switch from this, to harm ocd and I’m just really having a hard time w the thoughts mixed w the disconnected feeling. It makes me want to stay in bed forever and cry because I don’t wanna feel this way anymore. Any advice would be so helpful.

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