ROCD

i think i’m struggling with rocd but the thoughts feel so much more different than they have before. i was just wondering if the thoughts i’m going to list are also the thoughts other have had, and if so, do you have any tips to manage them? my thoughts are: “do i love my boyfriend?” “i don’t love him” “what if you don’t love him?” “i do love him” “is he the one?” “is he attractive?” “does that give you the ick?” “is this character trait of his bothersome?” “because this happened it means we aren’t compatible” “you need to break up with him” “do you want to break up with him?” “do you want to marry him?” i was just wondering because i feel so tired from trying to overcome them, that they’re just now starting to feel true. and just thoughts im gaslighting myself or that my thoughts are real and i really don’t love my boyfriend

I’m in a really low place with my ROCD. I feel like I have feelings for someone else & like someone else because of the feelings I have around/about/for this other person I guess. I’m only around this other person when in group settings with friends. I dont want this. I feel nauseous, guilty, all the things as I love my partner so much. I know I struggle with ROCD terribly and I need advice from someone who’s been in my shoes. Is this common in ROCD? Idek

I’ve questioned me and my boyfriend’s relationship since the beginning. I wasn’t initially attracted to him but then attraction grew a lot. All of the really important character things and heart things he checks off. But I always go back-and-forth if he’s my type and who I actually wanna be with. While he’s head over heels and so firmly believes that I am the most attractive person he’s ever met. Part of me feels like if I’ve been dating him for almost a year and I still end up going back to the same thoughts that I should just break up with him so I can stop with the inner turmoil and second guessing. I almost broke up with him once because I feel like he’s more in love with me than I am with him. But sometimes I’ll have a month or two where I’m pretty good and I think to myself that I want to marry him but then there always comes a day or a week or two where I really second-guess everything. He’s also my first relationship and sometimes I use that as a reason that we shouldn’t be together forever. And sometimes I question if I have respect for him and his career. Sometimes it feels like I plan everything and I’m the more responsible one and if we were to be married I would be the one making sure we go on adventures and have fun times because that doesn’t seem to come natural for him. Or am I just overthinking all of this? My whole family thinks I should marry him and that he’s a solid guy and the funniest guy ever. Idk. Maybe I’m just spiraling? Like how do you know if it’s OCD or if they’re actually just not someone you wanna be with?