- Date posted
- 26w ago
Is it even OCD anymore?
I started seeing every little thing as a sin. Or at least things that will bring bad karma. Everything, even little things like listening to music or enjoying a meal. In my eyes, everything everyone is doing is mostly sins and it terrifies me to death. It scares me to the point of paralysis and I canât even do anything anymore because everything is a sin in my eyes. Iâll definitely spiral if I think about it more, but if I donât, I feel like Iâm lying to myself. I donât even have confidence that this is OCD anymore. What if Iâm right (Iâm not necessarily wrong according to my religious doctrines, not that Iâm a 100% sure) and nothings going to help me, not even therapy? And if most things humans do are sins anyway, whatâs the point of anything? (See how it starts relating to an existential crisis) Iâm terrified that no oneâs gonna be able to help me anymore. I feel like Iâm at wits ends. I donât practice Christianity btw. Any insights or even âme tooâs would help.