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Hi, please somebody help me. I’m living the worst time of my OCD, and I really need reassurance that this is really OCD. I’m wake up already with the thoughts and the emotions, and even the physical sensations. I can’t stop thinking about killing people, I don’t want to stay alone but at the same time I also don’t want to be with certain people. I even question if i like my parents, and my close people. I feel like I Will lose control at anytime. I feel like I am some kind of psycho or a serial killer from the tv series.

letkas

Date posted: 47w

No worries bro, I have gone through this, is all in your mind but you must deal with it step by step. First just take some deep breaths 20 with 30 deep breathes. Then understand that this is just unresolved anxiety which is happening to you and your mind have just picked a scenario in order to express it ( it doesn't really matter the mind can imagine anything in order to express this anxiety, that you are a serial killer that you will go though psychosis that you will kill your parents and then you will go vegan in order to find forgiveness( this is a strong techinc to make jokes with your minds scenario so use it)). Second you will definitely not harm anyone if you wanted it, you wouldn't be here searching for an advise. Third you are not your thoughts, you are the one you sees them, this is important to remember. Fourth see that clear, your thoughts are just images and words. Five, life supports life just stay with it and try to figure out all the ways that this is happening daily. Six find books in order to learn about what you are dealing with. Seven talk to a therapist, better choose one who have gone through this.

Luis323

Date posted: 47w

@letkas Thank you for your answer bro. Last days are being crazy for me, I only get some rest when the night comes, and even then I have these crazy sensations in my body and thoughts like “your mother is a whore”and things like that, and then I’m allways tense when I’m home like I am controlling myself not to act on these thoughts and sensations, I’m only confortable in the presence of some people. When I’m alone I can’t take my head off these crazyness and these emotions and sensations. I think about good things and all I feel is tension and anxiety. I don’t know

letkas

Date posted: 47w

@Luis323 Ok start accepting those sensations and do not fight them just stay with them and feel them, use breath, anonymous just wanting to point that insurance and no insurance is the same thing. Just learn to observe and try to contact your truth with your family in a safe way, like I am not really my self the last days and I need to find someone to learn me how to use properly my imagination because I have stuck in a negative loop no need to discuss what exactly is this loop. The most of the people have this problem but they do not care they think that this normal you are lucky because this phase helps you to realise all the rubbish that you carry on your mind.

Anonymous

Date posted: 47w

No reassurance because that will keep you stuck. Maybe you are a psycho/serial killer and maybe you’re not.

Luis323

Date posted: 47w

@Anonymous What ? Why are you telling me that ?

Anonymous

Date posted: 47w

@Luis323 Response prevention. Have you done ERP for this theme? Reassurance is a compulsion with OCD. You have to allow the uncertainty in order to get better.

Luis323

Date posted: 47w

@Anonymous Never did it, my therapy was based on focus on another things

Anonymous

Date posted: 47w

@Luis323 If you can - would recommend ERP. There are some helpful books but would recommend doing ERP with a therapist. Also looking up response prevention techniques. I say this from a place of experience. I know how hard it is to sit with distress of our thoughts/themes but we can’t seek compulsions (reassurance or others) because they won’t lead to recovery. I’m still working on this so no expert.

Luis323

Date posted: 47w

@Anonymous @Anonymous But I’m a barber I work everyday with danger materials such as razor blades, shears and stuff. So I’m already exposing myself.

Anonymous

Date posted: 47w

@Luis323 Then you should try to get into ERP now. Have you tried through NOCD. You can also write a worst case scenario script - right one below if that will help you. You are to read it over and over to habituate to it.

Luis323

Date posted: 47w

@Anonymous Okok thank you for your help. But let me ask you, do you relate to my post ?

Anonymous

Date posted: 47w

@Luis323 My main theme are harm. Similar but different context.

lu22

Date posted: 23w

I really need advice harm ocd

I know we’re not meant to ask for reassurance but I’m currently not in therapy and I need help, it feels scarily real and I feel like I’m not anxious or worried over the thoughts. I had stabbing thoughts about someone I care about and I started deliberately imagining them to test myself to see if I hate it or not but instead it felt like I knew how it feels to stab someone and like the feeling of doing that physical action and I swear it is the worst thing I have ever experienced as well I had moments where it felt like It was about to happen or I keep getting this really sick ‘happy’ feeling that I want to do that and I don’t know what that is but it feels incredibly real almost like I was getting a happy feeling or wanted to do that thing and jsut wasn’t giving into it and now I’m thinking I’m actually evil and it feels like I get a pleasurable feeling over the thought of doing that and would want to do it?? Because I ‘like’ the feeling of doing it or it would ‘feel’ good I swear I really don’t know what to do it feels incredibly real I feel like I can’t even say that I’m worried or scared because I feel like I’m lying and actually want it and have evil desires I’m really concerned, I have never done anything bad in my life, I feel like what if through experimenting and imagining the thoughts to test myself I have suddenly discovered I like it because it feels extremely real that I would ‘enjoy’ or like Doing that evil thing and it’s really concerning, i don’t understand I was fine a few days ago and suddenly I’m experiencing this? Is it possible to suddenly become evil i don’t want to be evil, but what if i like it and my desire to not be evil isn’t as strong as this ‘happy feeling’ i wish I can be normal I don’t want any of this please but I swear I feel like there is something wrong with me, I think this is the worst I’ve ever felt, like it feels like I want it and would enjoy it and it’s making me feel really worried but at the same time I don’t even know if I’m worried please help I need advice

Legends123.

Date posted: 23w

Please help

Hello everyone, forgive my bad English since it is not my native language, I have been suffering from OCD for 6 years now. It started with being afraid of harming my loved ones and soon it escalated. All of this leads us here towards sexual obsessions. I was abused many times when I was a child. I don't know if that had any impact on my sexual issues. so everything lead up to a intrusive tought of what would happend if i touch myself with a picture of your parents" and I ended up paying attention to the intrusive tought and i ended up doing what my intrusive tought told me so i said to me "OCD would make me touch myself for everything i loved so what, i would do it before the anxiety attacks" and I end up in a spiral of having touched myself by several photos of my family members, friends and even my own therapist all wanting to prevent future compulsions and anxiety now I only think about taking my life, I never wanted that to happen I am not a monster who has sexual desire towards my loved ones I fell under my own intrusive thought and the only thing I think about now is taking my life life for what I've done

AJ Rose

Date posted: 22w

I’m having really bad thoughts of harm ocd

Im sleeping over my boys house and im having bad thoughts to hurt him and it’s like I can see myself acting on it. I never want to hurt anyone… I hope someone can comment or give me advice as I lie in bed watching crime documentary. It messes with my OCD creates false fantasies

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