Why would I feel like I “like” my “intrusive” thoughts? There’s time’s when I can actually say “this is terrible I can never like that” and other times when it’s just there and I don’t know what I’m feeling towards it, and sometimes it feels like I enjoy it in some way. Idk what more to do with myself.
Because it’s sexual content. Our brains are designed to enjoy it. When you have a thought, your brain only identifies the sexual nature in it and then registers your true likes and dislikes after the fact.
@Dreamer2343 What if the thought that appears in my head isn’t really sexual? What then?
@Jay222 Still OCD
@Dreamer2343 Hey, how are you? Is it ok if we talk about some TMI stuff? All up to you if you’re ok with talking about stuff like that. No idea if my long comments would help but I might just make a post for you to read and give me advice/feedback on. I’d appreciate it.
Do you ask yourself if you’re gay or straight 1000 times a day bc I do and I can’t stand it. This will just come out of nowhere and I tell myself I don’t care but to Doesn’t stop. I’m a mom and a wife and am so in love with my husband and only attracted to men but what’s keeping me stuck when I was a teen and college I was into lesbian porn for a minute but who cares anything sexual did it for me and I wouldn’t want to watch that now anyway but my brain can’t let that go
@flippy15 Oh girl, watching lesbian porn is so normal. We’re all a little gay, but it doesn’t mean you’re not straight. It’s normal to question it with OCD, but I’ve never really had this question bc I deal with POCD.
@Dreamer2343 But why can’t I settle on something I feel insane . And I know I’m not attracted to girls
@Dreamer2343 You’re straight and watched it? This was over 20 years ago!
@flippy15 Oh I watch lesbian porn all the time, it doesn’t affect me in anyway, but OCD centers around your biggest fear, so since I don’t really fear being gay or anything, ocd doesn’t attack that.
@Dreamer2343 I only felt a fear from the porn
@flippy15 Women are just pretty y’know. Nothing wrong with it and it doesn’t make you gay. Men watch gay porn also and it doesn’t make them gay.
@flippy15 Did you grow up in an extremely religious household? Because religion isn’t bad, but it does have an effect on the way we feel guilt from things we believe are sinful and this causes a lot of unnecessary shame and guilt.
@Dreamer2343 No it wasn’t around religion I think it is it confused me and I forgot about it until this all started. My dad and uncle are gay which also I think is my obsession like are there gay genes in me I don’t know about. It’s beyond stupid
@Dreamer2343 I have Watched lesbian porn too. Could we talk?
And only went to be with my husband but these thoughts don’t stop . I have no feelings toward girls at all not interested in the slightest
@flippy15 It’s okay. You don’t have to settle on anything bc there’s nothing for you to settle on. The thoughts mean nothing. The more you focus on them, the more they come back.
I know this logically but with so ocd is like the only one people are oh yea you are gay or bi
hey, so i’ve had these insane thoughts about like, this dude. and i assumed it’s intrusive feelings, but it also has happened w the fact o think i like girls? but i don’t? like, i get the gronal response, and everything, and like, it sometimes feels like i actually like them, but it always makes me sick? same way w the false attraction guy, and it even started happening w my bsf of like 9 years? and it’ll tell me the most insane things like “maybe u are attracted” “maybe if u got w them the thoughts will stop” someone please help.
So I was enjoying some “me time” and had intrusive thoughts, but it felt like just for a second I liked it. Like I’m holding myself back from “enjoying” the thought. And the thoughts are related to things I was into when I was younger, but sometimes I feel like I might still like it even though 9/10 I wouldn’t give it a second thought. Is this common? Or is this just denial? Thanks
I have been struggling today, most likely due to lack of sleep. I had a thought that I would consider intrusive, but what really unsettled me was that I felt like I liked it, **not just in the sense that I lacked anxiety over it, but that I genuinely felt like I wanted it.** It left me feeling really confused. It happened during intimacy, which makes it even more unsettling. The thought was incestuous, I found myself imagining and comparing the moment with my boyfriend to my father :/, and what really alarms me is that I felt like I wanted it there, both mentally and physically. I was having a really nice time, so maybe the physical sensations got mixed in somehow, but it still worries me. I did my best not to ruminate in the moment and avoided checking. I tried to move on, but the feeling of genuinely liking the thought was so clear that it is hard to shake off. Has anyone else experienced something similar? This is one of the first times it has ever happened to this extent.
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