lexiiiiiiii
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I’m worried I don’t actually have OCD
I’ve been diagnosed with ocd but sometimes I think I’m faking or I don’t actually, but idk if that’s the ocd tricking me or if it’s true
Hopeful29Hopeful29
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Don't want to give you reassurance but, meta ocd is a common theme
lexiiiiiiiilexiiiiiiii
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@Hopeful29 What’s that
TexasOCD41TexasOCD41
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@lexiiiiiiii - I think its where you have OCD about having OCD and if you're doing ERP you have OCD about if your doing your ERP correctly.
TexasOCD41TexasOCD41
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Rule #1 of OCD- it will ALWAYS try to convince you its not OCD. Its almost a hack you can use to KNOW its OCD. When I was early In my recovery I would say that phrase in therapy EVERY WEEK " what if I don't even have OCD and this is all actually real" and my therapist would point out " what if=OCD" and once I was more along the road with recovery I realized why its called " the doubting disease". Dont take the bait, just let that idea pass, its brain junk mail, no need to open it.
djfloriodjflorio
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It also honestly doesn't matter. OCD isn't a disease and it's not a black and white diagnosis. Intrusive thoughts, anxiety, and compulsive behavior are experienced by pretty much everyone to some degree. OCD is just a label used when someone experiences those things often and intensely enough that it's debilitating to them. Even if you don't fall into the OCD diagnosis, the tools used to treat it are useful. It's kind of like GAD (generalized anxiety disorder), which is basically just a label for people who experience anxiety often enough to "qualify" them for the disorder. For whatever reason, their nervous system is just more easily triggered than others. If you often feel really anxious, it would be kind of silly to worry whether or not you're "faking" having GAD.
TexasOCD41TexasOCD41
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I do agree with this, i would add tho that OCD does present with modified brain scan images. For reasons yet to really be nailed down, people with OCDs brain diverts blood flow away from the frontal cortex ( logic brain) to the amegdayla ( reptile brain) and it causes and unnecessary shift into a false need for fight or flight. So I wouldn't call OCD a disease but I would defiantly classify it as a disorder with both physical and behavioral components.
djfloriodjflorio
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@TexasOCD41 - Yeah I've read into that a bit as well. I personally wonder if it's a chicken-or-the-egg scenario though. Are the differences in brain scans the CAUSE of OCD symptoms, or are they the result of years of falling into that cyclical thought pattern? I think it's debatable, but then again I'm no neuroscientist.
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