False memory OCD and a bad drug experience

TRIGGER WARNING FOR DRUG USE: Hello everyone ! My name is Nicholas and this is the first time I’ve ever posted but I really just wanted to see if anyone has any experience like mine. I had tried shrooms about 4 months ago and took way too many and genuinely hallucinated and almost severely mutilated myself. During that trip I felt like I was stuck in a time loop and that the trip kept restarting. I was okay for a couple of months and then stupidly I thought smoking weed would be nice and could help calm some of my symptoms, and oh boy, I was severely wrong. I was thrown into what I could only really call PTSD, I could feel everything that I felt those previous months ago and that I felt like I was stuck back in this bad trip and that my reality was gonna fall apart, it’s now the day after and I’m still having those fears. I’m not really looking for advice, but I guess I could say more like looking for anyone with similar experiences? Just curious to see if anyone else out there has dealt with this :)

Ijustriide

Date posted: 1y

I haven’t had this experience with shrooms. Smoked all the time for years. Took a long break but when I did it again it gave me a really bad panic attack. I started some medication for my OCD (hydroxyzine) which really did not agree with me at all and when I was smoking I thought of how I felt on that pill and got extremely paranoid and it ruined the whole experience. I didn’t smoke again for years but now when I do it I’m okay. If I only stick to wax pens and go very slowly I’m fine. Also I learned to desensitize myself from the hydroxyzine and I will never take it again. The only thing I will say is I’m still paranoid to start new medication after my experience on that one

mydearmelanc...

Date posted: 1y

ive had a similar experience and notice all my intrusive thoughts tie into what i hallucinated that night. i didnt take shrooms but i was on a lot of different substances and hallucinated really bad and sometimes i feel like its gonna happen again or my thoughts convince me that its already happening again or im still stuck in the trip its horrifying :/

Be a part of the largest OCD Community

Share your thoughts so the Community can respond