Im feeling really depressed and like i dont care about anything, and suddenly ive lost all desire for a relationship or being with anyone. I just dont care about anything right now but its kind of freaking me out.
I feel this so much, and I’m sorry you’re experiencing it as well. It’s been a few months that I’ve felt this total desirelessness. Before OCD (or perhaps this version), I know I wanted a wife/partner, a happy life, to make things. Now that all seems so distant and impossible, like a dream, and I can barely believe any of it. The toughest part for me is when I hear “live anyway according to your values” but what do I even value anymore? I feel empty. That said, there is hope with therapy and the many, many stories of recovery from people who also felt at one point hopeless. Try to be patient with yourself. One day at a time.
I feel this exact same way. I'm in a relationship of 3 years and I feel so disconnected and so out of touch with my emotions that it's hard to feel grounded enough to want ANYTHING. Combine that with the constant intrusive thoughts going "you're gay" or "you don't want them" and the self-monitoring for any emotion that isn't perpetual anxiety, and you have a recipe for a mental health spiral. Be compassionate to yourself. This is a depressive response. I highly reccomend therapy if you aren't already in it.
@FloralEnvoy Thank you <3 i just want to feel normal again. I miss the old me so much.
@patheticgirl43 I think when our OCD goes untreated for long enough it will inevitably worsen into some manifestation. This is our normal, in that we should have gotten help before this, so our brain didn't feel the need to lash out like this. Treating this as the new normal, is how we return to the previous more confident versions of ourselves. I hope you can find peace, and try to fight your urges and compulsions!
I have ROCD and feel really the same way, just no desire to do anything with him:/
The intrusive thoughts popping up in my mind arent even bothering me. Im just telling them to fuck off because i dont care any more. Im just worried about the sudden loss of desire. Just feels like i want to be alone. Maybe because im depressed? Am i broken? Will it come back?
I just went through a breakup and now I’m really going this harder then ever before but it’s like I don’t even have feelings for freinds I lost all my desire to be wanted by anything or anyone it’s like I wanna be alone but I don’t
Hi so I've been having a recent theme of soocd hocd. At the start I was all panicked and couldn't leave my house. Now all my emotions feel like they have turned off. It feels real now like I'm just in denial. It's bringing up memories from the past of shows I've watched or people I was friends with to try and prove the point or people I thought were pretty. It's saying you've only realised now cause you are comfortable as I had a difficult childhood. I feel no attraction towards men and can't remember if I ever have now even though I know I did. It's saying its all fake. I really am. Starting to believe it's real and I just feel depressed now. Am I going to have to leave my boyfriend who I planned my life with. It feels like life is going by and I'm stuck. I have no energy at all.
I’m struggling with something I’m afraid to even admit out loud. I’ve been in a long-term relationship with someone I love deeply. He’s kind, safe, and emotionally close to me — and we’ve built a life together. But I keep obsessing over the fact that I don’t feel much sexual attraction anymore. Or maybe… I never truly did? At the beginning, I felt butterflies, excitement, connection — and I assumed that meant I was also attracted to him physically. But now, after reading so much and reflecting more deeply, I’m starting to wonder if I ever truly felt sexual desire in the way I was “supposed to.” Maybe my feelings were more about emotional longing, comfort, and romantic closeness — but not sexual chemistry. And now I don’t know what that means. OCD makes it so much worse. It constantly tells me: – “If you really loved him, you’d want him.” – “You’re leading him on.” – “What if you’re lying to yourself?” – “If you try to fix this and fail, you’ll have to leave.” I feel stuck between wanting to fight for this relationship — and being terrified that trying will just prove it’s hopeless. Has anyone experienced something like this? Can OCD really make you question something so deeply personal? And how do you move forward when even trying feels terrifying? Any thoughts or support would mean the world right now.
I feel different from others, I don’t feel as feminine and I feel like I’ve changed. I’m not sure why I feel this way. I also don’t think my ocd is ocd, it’s just something I told myself to feel better. I know! What if I am what if I’m not, I get it, but I don’t feel like i have a choice in the matter anymore. I have soocd and it’s eaten me alive for years. I woke up out of my sleep and got triggered and here I am. I don’t know what I feel anymore. I always wanted a boyfriend and now It seemed to change. I don’t want a girlfriend, it’s just that I don’t see anything for myself and I feel like I’m hiding. It’s hard to explain. Plus sometimes the way I move or speak makes me feel more masculine and it kills me. Im feeling so lost and alone right now. I know what I want deep down but I feel incapable of having those things because I won’t be able to have feeling. If that makes sense.
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