Im feeling really depressed and like i dont care about anything, and suddenly ive lost all desire for a relationship or being with anyone. I just dont care about anything right now but its kind of freaking me out.
I feel this so much, and I’m sorry you’re experiencing it as well. It’s been a few months that I’ve felt this total desirelessness. Before OCD (or perhaps this version), I know I wanted a wife/partner, a happy life, to make things. Now that all seems so distant and impossible, like a dream, and I can barely believe any of it. The toughest part for me is when I hear “live anyway according to your values” but what do I even value anymore? I feel empty. That said, there is hope with therapy and the many, many stories of recovery from people who also felt at one point hopeless. Try to be patient with yourself. One day at a time.
I feel this exact same way. I'm in a relationship of 3 years and I feel so disconnected and so out of touch with my emotions that it's hard to feel grounded enough to want ANYTHING. Combine that with the constant intrusive thoughts going "you're gay" or "you don't want them" and the self-monitoring for any emotion that isn't perpetual anxiety, and you have a recipe for a mental health spiral. Be compassionate to yourself. This is a depressive response. I highly reccomend therapy if you aren't already in it.
@FloralEnvoy Thank you <3 i just want to feel normal again. I miss the old me so much.
@patheticgirl43 I think when our OCD goes untreated for long enough it will inevitably worsen into some manifestation. This is our normal, in that we should have gotten help before this, so our brain didn't feel the need to lash out like this. Treating this as the new normal, is how we return to the previous more confident versions of ourselves. I hope you can find peace, and try to fight your urges and compulsions!
I have ROCD and feel really the same way, just no desire to do anything with him:/
The intrusive thoughts popping up in my mind arent even bothering me. Im just telling them to fuck off because i dont care any more. Im just worried about the sudden loss of desire. Just feels like i want to be alone. Maybe because im depressed? Am i broken? Will it come back?
I just went through a breakup and now I’m really going this harder then ever before but it’s like I don’t even have feelings for freinds I lost all my desire to be wanted by anything or anyone it’s like I wanna be alone but I don’t
My mental health is declining due to ocd. It’s like a huge mix between ocd episode and depression wave. I feel weak and hopeless. I wanna cry. I’m exhausted . I feel like I’ve lost myself again.
Hey everyone, I wanted to come on here today to just share this post because I’ve been struggling with this recently. I just wanna know if this is a common thing in relationship OCD. So last Friday me and my boyfriend had a conversation that was important, and my emotions were high and I got a little emotional about something he said and we had a long talk about it, the conversation went great and afterwards everything was okay. On Saturday I was so excited to see him after work and I was overflowing with feelings of happiness and excitement. Sunday was great and we stayed on FaceTime just enjoying the day together after he went home that morning, and then came Monday. I remember getting a thought like this, “What if I’m losing feelings for him and I’m just leading him on?” And even this thought, “I don’t really feel anything towards him right now, does that mean I fell out of love with him?” And then the anxiety came, I could literally feel myself breaking out in cold sweats and I could feel the pain in my chest after these thoughts crossed my mind. But what bothers me so much about this is on Saturday and Sunday I felt so content and happy with him and I was so happy and I didn’t have any anxiety whatsoever, and then Monday came, and I had those thoughts and I feel almost numb and I can’t feel anything else except the feelings of worry and fear and my anxiety has been at a all-time high and I keep feeling this pain of guilt and hurt in my chest and I just wanted to know if anyone else has experienced the same. Because personally one thing I hate is that one day I can be so happy and energetic and then the next day I can feel numb and feel absolutely nothing towards my boyfriend. I’m not sure if this can correlate with my menstrual cycle as well, but I’ve heard that that can also make your relationship OCD worse and cause you to feel differently about your partner. Just wanting to see if anyone has dealt with the same!
for me it’s getting to the point where i don’t feel in love with my boyfriend anymore. i’m trying to keep myself from compulsing since my compulsions are all mental. it’s like the thoughts consume my mind every second of every day and i can’t catch a break. it’s like i want to be with him so bad but my brain won’t allow me. any advice?
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