Im feeling really depressed and like i dont care about anything, and suddenly ive lost all desire for a relationship or being with anyone. I just dont care about anything right now but its kind of freaking me out.
I feel this so much, and I’m sorry you’re experiencing it as well. It’s been a few months that I’ve felt this total desirelessness. Before OCD (or perhaps this version), I know I wanted a wife/partner, a happy life, to make things. Now that all seems so distant and impossible, like a dream, and I can barely believe any of it. The toughest part for me is when I hear “live anyway according to your values” but what do I even value anymore? I feel empty. That said, there is hope with therapy and the many, many stories of recovery from people who also felt at one point hopeless. Try to be patient with yourself. One day at a time.
I feel this exact same way. I'm in a relationship of 3 years and I feel so disconnected and so out of touch with my emotions that it's hard to feel grounded enough to want ANYTHING. Combine that with the constant intrusive thoughts going "you're gay" or "you don't want them" and the self-monitoring for any emotion that isn't perpetual anxiety, and you have a recipe for a mental health spiral. Be compassionate to yourself. This is a depressive response. I highly reccomend therapy if you aren't already in it.
@FloralEnvoy Thank you <3 i just want to feel normal again. I miss the old me so much.
@patheticgirl43 I think when our OCD goes untreated for long enough it will inevitably worsen into some manifestation. This is our normal, in that we should have gotten help before this, so our brain didn't feel the need to lash out like this. Treating this as the new normal, is how we return to the previous more confident versions of ourselves. I hope you can find peace, and try to fight your urges and compulsions!
I have ROCD and feel really the same way, just no desire to do anything with him:/
The intrusive thoughts popping up in my mind arent even bothering me. Im just telling them to fuck off because i dont care any more. Im just worried about the sudden loss of desire. Just feels like i want to be alone. Maybe because im depressed? Am i broken? Will it come back?
I just went through a breakup and now I’m really going this harder then ever before but it’s like I don’t even have feelings for freinds I lost all my desire to be wanted by anything or anyone it’s like I wanna be alone but I don’t
Has anyone ever just felt weird? It’s hard to explain but I just feel weird lately. I usually suffer with harm OCD and I feel like lately I’m not reacting to things I normally would. There’s certain things that will trigger me a little but then other times (like over the last few days) it’s like I feel nothing. I’ll get thoughts and because I don’t feel the physical sensation in my chest or get very emotional like I normally would it’s weird to me. Does this mean I’m liking the thoughts now? Or like I’m comfortable with those actions happening? I’m so confused. Has anyone ever gone through this?
I’m 25 and never ever thought this before my soocd relapse. I have a bf of 5 years. Never been a high libido kinda girl. Don’t get me wrong I do get turned on by my bf but not like every day you know? - That had always been in the back of my head, is this normal and ok? But my ocd has latched onto the most scariest what if EVER. My brain is now saying How do you know you won’t prefer to sleep and kiss girls if you haven’t tried it: and it’s that unknown that is scaring the shit out of me. I DONT AND NEVER HAVE wanted to sleep / kiss a girl. But now my intrusive thoughts is all I think about!!! I don’t want I don’t want I don’t want??? So why does my brain think BUT WHAT IF??? I know ocd thrives off uncertainty which is why I think this is happening? But I don’t wanna find out or work it out because all I want is to be with my bf and marry him!! Is this just the epitome of OCD?
Can OCD mimic depression? With this theme I’m always wondering if I have OCD or depression. It first started out as harm OCD and now this. Today I told myself if I did have depression then it’s treatable and I would work on it. Then I started to feel depressed and emotional and like had an urge to google the difference. When I did this I just broke down because I felt like I related to them, it made me worse. However when I look up OCD symptoms it makes me feel better. So now I’m unsure. Almost like OCD wants me to believe it’s depression
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