OCD is so bad today. I keep thinking I’m gonna experience a delusion or something or a hallucinations. I’m really freaking myself out which in turn, makes it feel more real. I’m really worried about going in psychosis over this. I have tried to accept the fact that it could happen but honestly it’s not helping with what feels like “ delusion” even though I really just think it’s my intrusive thoughts mocking a delusion. Does anyone else struggle with this theme? I also wonder if you know if you’re going into psychosis? Like maybe I’m at the start of it? Any advice would help.

Lately I have for sure! I read about it and learned more this summer. Since then it comes every now and then, like recently when I havent been sleeping well. My attitude is that if it happens it happens, just like being born with OCD nothing you do causes it. Just try to take care of yourself and get better, thats all one can do, right?

Maybe try to do something that calms you down. Hang out with some people you like being with. ”Try” to think of something else, and just ”try” to look at the good side of things. Worst thing you can do with OCD is just let the thoughts build prison walls around you.

I dealt with this for 3.5 years every day. It was AWFUL. It ruined my life, because I didn’t know how to dea with it. First, *please do not google symptoms!* Second, if you’re not currently on medication, now might be a good time to talk to your doctor just in case. With me, medication helped a ton, as well as CBD. Third, realize that it’s just your OCD telling you this. That’s it! Stay strong ?

That’s nice to know about CBD! I’m gonna look into it. It is really hard to stop researching cause you wanna find relief or like find out if you are losing it or not(at least I think that’s why I do it lol). When I’m doing good and I’m not in the loop of OCD, I can look back and laugh as to why I thought that way. I was doing so much better up until recently. It’s like I thought I was over it and then it came back full force. I’m just treating it like OCD and hoping the thoughts will eventually die down when I stop playing into them. You’re not rambling at all! I really really appreciate you taking the time to write me. More then you know. I was feeling really alone earlier. You’re so strong and now I’m gonna try and be. Thank you so much! ☺️

I think you’re right about the not asking and looking up symptoms part. I feel like it is making it worse. I think I’m more scared of believing the intrusive thoughts and believe that they could actually happen. Even though I know how silly they sound out loud. I also think I panic because of how bizarre my intrusive thoughts are. I was feeling like I was losing touch with reality. Hoping I can just sit with it and wait for the anxiety and thoughts to die down. Thank you so much for responding! I really appreciate it❤️.