Distorted Image of God

I am Muslim and very reluctant to try to help. If you feel you want to share and want me to answer from my perspective, feel free to reply. Otherwise, I pray for your peace of mind and guidance.

I'm so very sorry that you deal with this type of OCD, struggling in this same area as well and I know it can distort reality. But I want to let you know that Jesus is merciful and full of grace and Love and as well that he is All knowing and knows that your thoughts bother you and are unwanted. And again I struggle with this and it's hard for me to maintain. But the best thing I found in my experience is fighting the thoughts with scripture itself. If you're struggling, my recommendation would just be to try and dive into the Bible or search up specific verses that fit your situation and then compare it to the Bible to make sure it's correct. Here's a few verses to get you started off; 2 Corinthians 12:9 ESV [9] But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Romans 8:37-39 ESV [37] No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. [38] For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, [39] nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. Psalm 55:22 ESV [22] Cast your burden on the Lord, and he will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved. Matthew 11:28-29 ESV [28] Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. [29] Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. Isaiah 41:10 ESV [10] fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. I hope these help, I also just want to tell you that God loves you very much and he sent his son Jesus to die for you because he loves you so very much, and truly believe if you just take your struggles to him and tell him these things it it will help you as he is faithful and will not let the righteous be moved and that's even better because he says that he has become righteousness for us ( [30] And because of him you are in Christ Jesus, who became to us wisdom from God, righteousness and sanctification and redemption, -1 Corinthians 1:30) Jesus loves you so very much and can and will get you out of this. If you ask. I will pray for you and I hope you feel better and as a very wise tomato once told me God made you special and he loves you very much!!!

Also sorry I meant to put this in the post but just in case you don't have a Bible here's the app for it; I'm using the Bible App by YouVersion.com. Download it now for your mobile device. https://app.bible.com/FCPc/ilyCM8GCtC?add_friend_id=189833441

Try to remember those thoughts and feelings are not yours, they are OCD. It attacks what is important to you. Trying to understand these thoughts and feelings will only make them worse. Try not to react to them. Sit with the uncertainty. I know that is not an easy thing to do but the more you practice ignoring them the less power they have over you. I don't know if you are familiar with Mark DeJesus and Jaimie Eckert but I really recommend their materials. Between them and NOCD I am improving.

I get it. I was questioning about God. If there is one etc... religion is one of my ocd themes.

Questioning about God is very common with OCD as I'm sure you know. Just try to not argue with OCD about it. That's an argument you can't win.