- Username
- hannie
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I had this really bad a few months ago and the not checking accepting has really helped me, I just say ‘I shall accept the uncertainty that I may be crazy’ it has really worked, I was constantly in fear that I was gradually going crazy and always checking which made me hyper aware which just made it worse. I promise it can get better just stop checking. I still get it from time to to time and just let the thought breeze by.
Thank you so much for the advice and taking the time to respond. I’m gonna work on the not checking if I’m crazy and ignore the intrusive thoughts.
Talking about it to the right people is best, sometimes you confide in the wrong people and they make fun of you behind your back it’s all just a learning process of who you can trust and who you can’t in some cases at least here you know everything is confidential.
Thank you all so much for responding. I appreciate all your advice! I was feeling so low. Like I’m gonna just lose everything. I have had this off and on for sure the past year and this time it came back full force. My mind like copies delusions I have seen or read before on forums. I just have to deal with the fact I might be because I really don’t know and just let it pass. You all are so strong and amazing. The fact that you guys just took the time to help me means so so much. We shall keep fighting???. You all are warriors!
I had this, its just fear of losing your mind so you keep checking if you're sane. Obviously me telling you you're sane isn't going to stop the checking. Your brain needs to be taught theres nothing to fear by you stopping checking. Your brain; check if im not going crazy You: no Your brain; sbjsshbbs what, CHECK, what if im going crazy You: nope Your brain; WTFFFF you: :) Your brain; oh maybe its fine Recovered.
Ye like Rachel said it's a difficult one to get rid of because you can never be 100% certain that you're not going insane and OCD loves playing on uncertainty. I'm having a bit of an episode today for the first time in a while and asking myself do i feel normal or like i used to, that somethings not right, could it be me losing my mind? I now know it's just my mind checking if i'm in danger and seeing if i'm reacting, aslong as i dont it will go but if i start checking then it will become a huge issue all over again.
In some case you might not be going crazy sometimes people are straight up mean
OCD is so bad today. I keep thinking I’m gonna experience a delusion or something or a hallucinations. I’m really freaking myself out which in turn, makes it feel more real. I’m really worried about going in psychosis over this. I have tried to accept the fact that it could happen but honestly it’s not helping with what feels like “ delusion” even though I really just think it’s my intrusive thoughts mocking a delusion. Does anyone else struggle with this theme? I also wonder if you know if you’re going into psychosis? Like maybe I’m at the start of it? Any advice would help.
Really thought about whether or not to post this but I’m really struggling and wondering if anyone has gone through the same thing/what helped them out of it. I have fears of psychosis/schiz/delusions and I started having intrusive thoughts that sound and feel delusional even though I know they’re not true, and I don’t actually believe them. I obsess over whether I think they’re true and if I’m actually delusional, then I start to feel really disconnected and dreamy (like derealization?) but then I get worried that I’m actually dissociating and/or losing my mind. I rly struggle w these thoughts as they make me so uncomfortable and make me feel like I am delusional. I will reread things I wrote, rethink things I have already said to make sure they’re coherent, argue w my thoughts, constantly check to make sure I know who I am, where I am, know who my family is, etc. to ensure I’m not losing my mind. My themes switch from this, to harm ocd and I’m just really having a hard time w the thoughts mixed w the disconnected feeling. It makes me want to stay in bed forever and cry because I don’t wanna feel this way anymore. Any advice would be so helpful.
Does anybody else’s intrusive thoughts come in the form of “delusional thoughts”? I’ve been in a terrible episode of hypochondria or ocd for the past 6 months where I have FULLY convinced myself I am developing schizophrenia, it started with becoming really easily overstimulated and not being able to concentrate and now it has spiraled out of control to where I am constantly getting intrusive thoughts center around demonic stuff, which i have never ever believed before, I have always been a skeptic. But now i get these thoughts all the time like “what if this song has hidden demonic meanings?” “What if your wife is a demon” “what if nobody is real and your just in hell” “what if this political figure is being controlled by the devil”, the typical kind of delusional thoughts you would expect from a schizophrenic. Keep in mind I am a literal atheist and all about facts, science and evidence, I am a skeptic. Not only does the fact that I’m even having these thoughts in the first place scare the life out of me, but I have to constantly battle with these thoughts in my head if I believe them or not. I feel like I have to constantly hold myself back from fully going off the deep end, I feel like I have to constantly disprove these thoughts and stop myself from believing them, but they feel so real and it’s scaring me so much. One part of me is like “why can’t we just stop worrying about this, this is delusional” and another part of me is like “what if I actually do need to worry about if these things are true or not, they FEEL true” and I’m just like “wtffff I shouldn’t have to worry about if things like this are true at all in the first Place!” I feel like I have fully lost my mind, and in no time I’m going to lose this little bit of insight I have. I hate these thoughts so much, I don’t want to think about them, but now that they are here, I feel like I can’t forget them. My dpdr is already making everything feel so off and weird and unreal and I feel like it’s only giving these thoughts more credibility and realness. I feel like this could also be partly a terrible form of existential ocd that’s being thrown into the mix with all these “what if thoughts”. Ugh I just want to be normal again ): but I don’t even know what normal feels like anymore because I’m constantly on the lookout for symptoms that I can’t even be normal anymore. Btw: yes I am seeing 2 therapists and a psychiatrist and all of them do not believe I am developing schizophrenia.
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