- Date posted
- 38w
rocd help
I’m really struggling all of a sudden. I have urges to break up and i don’t want to at all it makes me feel physically ill and i get terrible thoughts about myself and my character. I’m just very tired and miss being able to love my partner without worry. Sometimes i do question if u even have rocd but then i read about it and it’s literally everything that i go through. My boyfriend is the most amazing person and i know id never meet another person like him. We have little differences but i love him very much. It’s like my rocd has taken those small differences and made them seem like dealbreakers when they aren’t. It’s made me question if i love him enough because im constantly thinking terrible things about us. When i see him and im present i feel in love and happy and very glad i’ve stick through this. The past few days though for some reason im so overwhelmed. Literally this past weekend i was with him and felt SO happy and just at home. Now that im alone ive been having the urges again and i just hate myself for it i don’t want to ruin this for myself. If anyone has tips on how to deal with breakup urges and just be like hey the anxiety isn’t going to disappear by leaving please let me know.