- Date posted
- 39w
pocd is just ruining me
i hate pocd so much :( i feel like i’m a p*** but i’m not and these intrusive thoughts are killing me so much i don’t know how else to think about myself i just feel like why did God make me this way why couldn’t i have had a normal mind i feel sick because i had to spend like an evening with my cousins and my nieces and i felt fine during that and i wasn’t having any intrusive thoughts until like it clicked in my head then i had intrusive thoughts it was the worst because like one of my neices was trying to hug me but i kept pushing her away and i felt horrible but i didn’t feel comfortable i think today was just a pocd episode and yesterday too because i kept like thinking and researching so much and i kept questioning like what was the difference between them p*** who don’t act up on their thoughts and also like they feel horrible about their thoughts too so what was the difference between pocd like do they just have undiagnosed pocd ? idk it kind of sent me to overdrive and i kept questioning myself