savannahframe19

Date posted: 35w

why is it so hard to not think about death

i had my therapy session i did an exposure but lit my fear of death has been sticking with me for the past few days.. it’s so hard bc i have this constant “what if i die?” or “what if i wanna hurt myself?” with my sucidial ocd… and i’m like doing my exposure trying not to do a compulsion… bc this is my MAIN MAIN theme that bothers me… and my fear of depression comes along and says “what if ur depressed and don’t care and u wanna die? or ur gonna die?” especially it’s my last year of high school and i lost my best friend last year from her dying and i’m so scared bc i have this thought “what if something bad happens on the day she passed away or what if u die at the end of the school year…” or “what if u die before graduation?” because my graduation is on her birthday… and like my ocd is just making me feel down and it’s just ugh i want it to go away i’m so scared i’m gonna feel miserable like this i don’t wanna think of death and i’m so scared of it

cmac1339

Date posted: 35w

My therapist told me it gets worse before it gets better. But it doesn’t stay worse for long. Don’t let it stop you, i know it’s easier said than done. But I’ve done it before

savannahframe19

Date posted: 35w

@cmac1339 ik it’s just ugh

hanysm@gmail...

Date posted: 35w

Because you are not thinking enough about life. Get occupied with activities, hobby, sports, family, friends, stay away from antisocial media, electric games, ... and fix your sleep habits. Then let me know if you have time about as something else

savannahframe19

Date posted: 35w

@hanysm@gmail.com i do think about life… music, family and my friends are important to me even God is important to me… my ocd sparks when i’m sitting at home

Someone99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 35w

Have you been learning response tools in therapy? Once you do, trust them. They will work outside the therapy session. And once your mind can settle, learn more about God and His promises.

savannahframe19

Date posted: 35w

@Someone99 i’ve been doing my exposures and sitting with it but it’s such a hard theme i struggle with them

savannahframe19

Date posted: 35w

@Someone99 and i have response prevention stuff yes and i write them down and say them out loud

Someone99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 35w

@savannahframe19 I'm so sorry to hear you lost your friend too. I lost a brother years ago in a horrible way, I know the hurt. It never goes away fully. It's natural to fear death. It's the unknown for all of us. I pray you'll find peace through all this. 🙂

savannahframe19

Date posted: 35w

@Someone99 ik its hard but i’m still grieving it’s just im growing and i’m 18 trying to understand it’s ok to have bad days

Someone99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 35w

@savannahframe19 It is ok to have bad days. 🙂 It's important to give yourself grace like that, especially with OCD.

Someone99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 35w

@savannahframe19 Thank you for being here and sharing with us. It always helps me to know I'm not alone, and to try to encourage others here

AnonymousEm

Date posted: 6w

Something that has helped me and might help you is to remind yourself in the moment (even if you must say it out loud): “OCD wants me to be afraid of thoughts in order to avoid my feelings. My brain is telling me feelings are a threat, but they are just feelings, which change from moment to moment. Ruminating about death does not prevent death, because we all die. I will never know when it’s my time, so I will do my best to live a full life and truly show love to everyone who is important to me.” OCD is like your brain sending misplaced signals so that you can “survive” threats. Your amygdala is basically on fire. You have to teach your amygdala that feelings are not threats. You just have to try feeling them as the exposure. Not indulging in thought rituals. Just allowing yourself to feel loss, which actually can form a new neural pathway to teach your brain that feelings are not threats to survival. We all die, and that’s what makes life so much more worth living. I see that you made this post a while ago. How are you feeling now?

Keeps Trying

Date posted: 6w

I definitely don’t know the answer, but I can relate. For me it’s 40+ years of different obsessions and compulsions which worm their way into a million different uncertainties, and almost any fear can end up in me dying or unintentionally causing someone’s death. Maybe it’s life’s/common humanity’s greatest uncertainty?

ana444

Date posted: 24w

Been obsessed with death

Of course we can’t stop the inevitable but with my ocd it’s all I can think about. I’m afraid I’ll be alone for ever and I’ll fear forever. Fear does not stop death it stops life. But how do I stop fear??? I can’t think of anything scarier than the fact that our conscious will vanish for eternity. I am only 20 years old but I mean the last 5 years flew by like nothing.

Draykewampler

Date posted: 19w

fear of death and ocd

so i have ocd but this is the main theme ive been dealing with for the last few months, im obsessed with my mortality and i feel trapped by the reality of death. i dont really believe in an afterlife which makes it scarier, not that i dont wanna my brain literally just wont let me. but i have daily panic attacks thinking about death all day, its honestly the toughest thing ive ever dealt with. does anybody have any tips on how they manage this if they have ever dealt with it? not looking for reassurance, just some non compulsive ways to kind of lessen the grip of the fear.

This is me!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 14w

Aging and death anxiety

I’ve been perturbed for a couple of months now with incessant thoughts about aging and dying. I really am not sure what to do. This feels like other OCD themes, but also really different, because this time, what I’m afraid of is sure to happen. I will either die, or age and then die. It’s been so difficult to enjoy anything lately. I just want to pull a blanket over my head and wait until death comes. Has anyone else felt this way? I feel quite alone. I am trying to enjoy life, but I just remember that it will all be gone in a flash. Nothing really seems to help me feel better. The only escape I have is in my dreams where I can fantasize about never aging or dying. Or at least being able to rewind the clock to have more time.

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