- Date posted
- 37w
Initial attraction? 21+
This is probably going to be a bit triggering for ROCD folks, so please be warned. Does anybody else have the feeling that they were not initially that physically attracted to their partner? My girlfriend said something about how I wouldn’t have messaged her if I didn’t find her attractive, and now I’m emotionally flooded and feel the extreme urge to confess that those feelings took some time to develop. But that also scares me, because I feel like I’ve gone through waves of diminished attraction since then :( It’s also hard for me sometimes to appreciate her beauty because even when she looks like an angel, I can’t stop checking for attraction (which in turn dulls it). I’m just feeling awful right now and like I’m lying to her by not telling her this. I love her more than anything. I don’t want to hurt her with a confession (or continue the confession cycle- it’s my biggest compulsion), but I also don’t want to hide anything or omit info that could be vital for her to know. I just need some words of wisdom :( I feel like such a deceiver. Is this something I should confess?