I know this might be giving reassurance but an Instagram account ocdrecoveryuk said that in regards to hocd. It can be SO convincing and feel so real. It can even make you feel like you want to kiss or engage in sex with the same sex even though you don't. His words not mine. It just feels good to know I'm not crazy and a professional gets it and understands the struggle of how crippling and real ocd can feel to the sufferer. Also he will be making a Youtube channel soon so for the people that don't have or can't have Instagram he will be making one soon and I'm exciting to watch his videos.

I can relate to this 100%. I felt straight a while back and now I straight up feel bisexual. I think it is due to mistakes I've made in my past and that can't be explained away. So I think there is no other option than that I'm bi. I know I don't want to be with girls but feel like I have to otherwise I'm in denial of my "true self." I hate ocd with a passion it will twist and turn everything and make it feel real and like it is you actually liking and wanting these thoughts.

It’s been feeling really really “REAL” lately. (Just put quotations because I didn’t want it to sound weird lol) like I keep getting arousal to images I’m forcing on my self to think about. It’s really painful and it sucks because, it’s not pleasurable, not one bit. It’s just painful to feel a groinal response so often and it’s feels uncomfortable.

I follow that account too it’s great!

Rob is totally right on that , it can definitely feel 100% real , not because it is , but because you start to doubt your feelings to the point of numbness and you take any small feeling as evidence. It could also just be the fact that you do something for only a second and don’t have enough time to work out how you truly feel , so when an emotion comes up , you think you liked it. This is not reassurance , just looking at this from a perspective of interest in what may cause someone to feel that way.