I HATE THIS SO MUCH! It would be so easy to end this. Why am I even trying to survive with this anymore. I’m so tired and sad and over it. I can’t even grasp a reason to keep trying.

Hang in there,I feel that way too Just live one day at a time ❤️

Everything will be okay, change your relationship with OCD. Right now it feels like you want it to just stop and go away. And that’s not realistic right now, so accept it and learn that it’s not something that has to bother you, those thoughts just let them come and go let them be background noise. The urgent compulsions don’t do them and let the anxiety build up because eventually it will come down and you will start to feel better. You have a lot to offer. I’ve been really good and really bad with OCD, but I’ll tell you when I learned to focus my brain on the good and the present a lot changed. Also go into therapy and go on meds they help tremendously. Hope this helps! It will get better and you will prevail !

Keep fighting man, trust me OCD has brought me to my knees and made my cry before. There were times I couldn’t even get up in the morning because I was feeling so anxious, but regardless of how bad it got I kept fighting and I promised myself I’d never quit. There’s so much to live for and to accomplish. I’m doing so much better now, sometimes I still get in my moods and have the intrusive thoughts but it’s not nearly as bad as it used to be. I hope my story helps u and helps u realize u will be okay.

Ooh. I can’t try that. Lol

You shouldn't try it. There need to be an experienced user who will not allow you to harm yourself

Oh that makes sense. Still wouldn’t tho.

Google: golden teacher and read about it

Have you got any super powers?

What do you mean?

For example, i can perfectly pretend dumb, just to someone could came out better in people eyes, and i'm proud when help someone that way, even if he don't realise that i sacrifice myself for him

Oh. Like something I do that I could see as a super power...

I don’t know. I feel useless right now. Nothing feels much like a superpower. I just feel empty and dead.

I feel u but i have a baby to raise so i stick around for him

Focusing won't work as much. Even random word from stranger or even on youtube video can bring compulsive

You’re not alone. I can totally relate with how you’re feeling, just wanting to disappear. But then ocd would win. This is a battle but you will come out stronger! You will be able to help many people struggling with the same things you are

Thank you all for the kind words and suggestions. I wish I could say I’m feeling better today but nothings changed. I’m gonna keep trying as long as I can. It’s so hard to fight when you want to give up.

Ryanp0333, thank you for that. Did you take meds to get where you are now?

Yes!! I took meds and thought “hey I’m doing really good” and then stopped taking them like an idiot lol and I ended up relapsing so bad, it was worse than when I didn’t even know I had OCD because I just felt so anxious and bad knowing I knew it was OCD but nothing I did could stop it. Then I went back on Meds and started therapy again and have made so many strides. I still have bad days without a doubt but my good days have gone up tremendously. I definitely suggest taking meds and doing CBT or talk therapy. We live in a time now where we have so much information and help with these mental disorders that we should take full advantage of it!

A lot of people have told me to try meds but I’m really scared of talk them.

Every story of success people have had with them helps. Thank you

No problem, I know exactly what you mean I was always reluctant to go on meds, I always wanted to “do it the natural way” and “work it out myself” but I realized the meds are here to help and that I have control over the amount I take. Right now I take a very low dose and it already helps tremendously.

I hope I can get to the point where I’m not afraid of taking meds. It’d really help.

There was a period in my life that psychedelics really help me stand up and fight with my monsters

What are psychedelics?

Hard drugs like lsd, mushrooms etc

Will do! Thanks